Fall in love for real

and its only been 3 months…but i’m freakin head over heels for this kid. :] :]
every moment i spend with him, i fall a little harder.
he. completes. me. ♥

but its not just that. i can be totally myself around him. and he loves me just the same. somedays we act like complete little kids :D (okay most days :P) we’re such tards together and i always have so much fun with him. its so much more than just a relationship. its also an awesome friendship always filled with laughs and giggles and kissies :)

_{“i always knew i’d find someone. i never knew it’d be like this. you’ve surpassed all that i’ve hoped for and ever wished. and i’m trying so hard with all my heart and mind to make your life as good as you’ve made mine.”}

“i can’t sleep because reality is so much better than my dreams.” =]

“its that can’t eat, can’t sleep, reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kinda stuff….”
♥♥

I was riding my bike today and was listening to a love song and thought “wow i am really enjoying this because i am not in love: I love life so much right now that I don’t feel the need to be in love. You just need good people around you and something to do. I hope to find it one day, but today i am okay:)the picture is from a farm i went to today for a going away party. i thought it was amazing that a trash can could say that and be so pretty:)

If this isn’t love
(This isn’t love)
This is the closest I’ve ever been
♥♥♥ =]

Audrey, Start the Revolution.

There is really nothing to say about this except that I want to do what most people also want to do. It is a natural thing to want someone who understands you and doesn’t judge. Someone who frustrates and challenges you but who you forgive in the end. :)

let’s just say, once you finally stop seeking it… it’ll find you. don’t give up on yourself… focus on living your life and being yourself, and once you do that, you’ll attract and/or be attracted to people that you didn’t even think existed. love can be found in the most unexpected places!

She was a friend, we just clicked. Spent as much of our free time together and the nicest part of the day was getting a lift to work together. Jut to sit side by side in the car, made me so happy. Talked about everthing, our current relationships which were not doing well. I decided to end my relationship – for all the right reasons – it was dead. And she decided to do the same a little later. And somewhere in the middle of it all we worked out we were in love with each other, which made things really hard.

We had so many good times, she healed me and i remembered what love was all about. I thought there must be a reason we found each other at such a critical time. I couldn’t give her up, loved her so much and our paths seemed to just keep bringing us back together even when we would try and part. And what could i do? I fell in love so hard, she got under my skin, i didn’t know until it was too late.

But then after breaking up with her ex, and leaving, she went back. Broke my heart, absolutely shattered me.

Found out the hard way that even when love is real, not everybody values it. It was real for us, but she was not prepared to make the big changes in her life to honour our love, to be with me. So she has gone back to her home and family, and her partner? I don’t think there’s any real love there, but there is the warmth of family and family connections. Which is a kind of love i guess.

Now i want to fall in love for real again – but this time i hope my heart picks somebody who is prepared to do something about it. Give me strength to trust again.

The guy I had been dating… I got up the courage to talk to him about the lack of “Zsa-zsa-zsu” a few weeks back. Actually, I did most of the talking; I said that I couldn’t “date” someone who was so afraid to make any type of committment – no matter how small. He just replied, “OK”.

I finally resigned myself to non-dating. Giving up for a while. Then, one day, I was at the library chatting online, and BAM – a guy. Turns out he is employed, LEGAL (for a change), kind, fun, and seemingly “normal”. I am falling….

i said “i love you” and meant it, but i wasnt exactly in love. if you know what i mean?

I have been dating a guy for 4 months now. It feels like we are just quiet, platonic friends. We don’t talk. We don’t really even hang out. How do you find the FIREWORKS!!! I don’t want to settle, but right now, I feel that being alone would be dangerous for me – I am in a fragile state. Help…..

I don’t think anything could be more true about love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

It has occurred to me that perhaps I have already reached my goal of “falling in love for real”. Because I have this kind of love with some people. They are my friends. They are the people that I might not spend the rest of my life with in any way, shape or form. We might lose touch after I go to college, or maybe after I graduate and find a job somewhere else and a place somewhere else. Which I can’t imagine happening because I want my kids to go to that church and that school that I was never lucky enough to go to.
But I might have already reached this goal. Because I do love these people, who are my family in all but DNA, with all the biblical characteristics of love. I love this group with a love that I pray will never fail and will never be below the one and only true standard of love.

I have discovered the perfect description of love. My question to myself is, do I have this kind of love in my life? Am I living this out?