get asked out

Suprisingly it took me a little while to realise this.
I think i was only with him coz i was lonely and i just wanted to be with someone again.
Anywho i ended it with him twice actually :S he conviced me back into the so called relationship.
I first ended it like a few weeks after going out wiht him mainly because i had moved about 3.5 hrs away (that and the fact he was shiting me). Then when i came back to the area for NYE, to hang with friends he turned up at one of the places i was a few days after new years and i stupidly ended up with him yet again..(i knw i cant blame being intoxicated for this).
While i was down for like 2 weeks or so i went out with him then i when i got back home he said he wanted to try the long distance thing however i disagreed with it as it normally doesnt work, as i was trying to explain what i thought on the matter he cracked it at me and just said “whatever” twice then hung up on me. Since then i havent called.
He has lately being msg me asking me to hang out and when i didnt reply he msgd me saying he hoped we could still be friends.

I feel like such a tool. I really need to wake up to ..life.

by this guy that i meet at a friends gathering
since he had being drinking a little and i hadnt i drove him & his friend home
he msgd me the next day to see if i wanted to go see a movie
so we did, and all went well

then the next day we went for a walk, and he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend
I just laughed it off as im moving away in 2ish weeks
But then he took me back to his place to …
Meet his parents!!!
scary considering it was only the second date..

anyhow
the day after, he invited me back around to his place
(and his parents were out)
so he made dinner and we watched some tv
i guess he got a little horny
as he kept feeling me up and what not
so we were making out
the next thing i knw is he’s trying to take my pants off
i was like “no no no no no”
he was like “come on you will enjoy it”
pfft
boys, always trying to have sex

but he kept trying to take my pants off
i was like i dont want to
Still he kept trying
Why is it that guys never listen?
.. I especially didn’t want to do it on the lounge that his parents were sitting on the night before :S
It could have at least being a bed for goodness sake!
and i doubt he even had protection

I guess he figured that because I didn’t say yes to being his girlfriend that I just wanted to fool around :S
When I told him that last night that I was going away, he say well we will just have to make the most of it then..
I’m not entirely sure what he meant by that :S

He was telling me that he didn’t feel anything with his last girlfriend as she had been a slut and was rather loose, so I think from what he was saying he just want to have sex with me as I will be tight as I’ve only had sex once.

i just want someone i can love
not someone just to screw
is it that hard???
im just about ready to give up on this whole dating game
i always seem to come out second best
sigh

well ok so here goes..
‘he’ asked me if i wanted to take it slow or see how it goes (about 3 weeks ago)when we hang out in a few days so anyway nothing really happened.
But on last monday i went around to his place and well we hung out just doing crap.
oh and by the way we have this inside joke, in the sport he does he has all these little kids that love him and what he does so i call them his groupies and i told him that he is my groupie as i dont have any so he agreed.
And well yeah when i was at his place we were joking around adn i said “well come on ur my groupie where is the worshiping hmm??” and OMG he lent in like in the movies sigh and kissed me double sigh that boy is one great kisser :) so we ended up kissing 3 times that day. yay. oh and i had a cold and i was like you might get sick and he said “doesnt matter, it would be worth it” awww cuteness but he did end up with my cold :( oops!
The sad thing about this is that he has hardly spoken to me since then, its only been at school here and there adn i have tried talking to him but i dont know anymore ..he told me he had feelings for me and i told him i had feelings for him too but now i dont know how he feels anymore…

Well I recently got a boyfriend. I’ve known him for years as just a friend but we took it to the next level. Everything is working out great. ;)

..it would just be nice for it to happen. I have someone in mind.