Control My Stress

I have a love/hate relationship with stress. I feel more in control of things when I stress out about it. Its like I care more about it. Even though I care more about what I’m stressing over, I still won’t attempt to fix that problem. I hate it because I get random pains and uhh…heart palpitations? I don’t know, weird chest pains.
There’s this writing contest I read about in a seventeen magazine. I’m thinking about doing it. I love writing, not short stories so much, but it’s still worth a try. It’s hard to write when I’m stress out. Impossiable. I can’t stop thinking about whats stressing me out. Can you believe I live like this? I need to be more organized with my thoughts and how I go about getting my shit together.

Ugh! Mine is usually very low, just had it checked at the dentist. It’s still normal but high for me. And I threw my back out this morning. I think this is not the best low-stress week for me!

I am putting things in perspective, and from a different perspective, everything looks different (and better) – so it’s all OK. I won’t rid myself of stress until the end of my school year, but meanwhile I’m ready to tackle what comes my way, face the stress and break on through to the other side!

I have had lots of stress lately. Rick’s schooling, Money, me trying to find out want I want in life, Also I’m trying to find out what I wanna do with my life. I wanna be a writer, but I feel I don’t have what it takes. Ever since starting yoga though, I feel my stress is easier to deal with. Most of the time I’m ok. But if I have appointments I’m a mess. I’m good if I can just get things done when I want to, but appointment keeping, or making…. That just rips me up inside..
Well, I guess that’s about it for now…

this could be it- underlying everything else I want to do, or what I think I can’t… that’s why it’s at the top of my list!