fall in love truly, madly, and deeply

I have found the most amazing guy. I have spent almost two years with him and he makes every day so much better. I love him more than I ever thought possible. He makes me a better person and I love being around him. <3

Well about 10 weeks ago i moved from my country town into the big city to study at TAFE. Sleeping in a swag on the lounge room floor in a modified 4 bedroom house which is home to 6 perminant residents. Thankfully my brother is one of them, otherwise i wouldn’t have survived.

My friend had done a TAFE course before this one and had told me about everyone doing it. There was one guy i took an interest in and always asked her about him. Then finally, when the next course came along there he was. (Course was Certificate III in Horse Racing: Trackrider) I felt like i’d known him for ages. Problem was he didn’t have a clue who i was. I was shy, everyone knew each other. Everyone had riden on the track before, i’d only ever ridden in an arena (Completely different styles. Hard coming from Arena to Track) But we got talking.

To cut a long story short. The attraction was there from the beginning. After a drunken night at my friends 19th we hooked up and ended up going out the morning after. Both as hung over as hell. Were still at TAFE. He is my foundation. He is saving me from myself. As i was fighting a losing battle in the city all alone. I felt insignificant.

Were heading onto 2 months now. Still early days but for me it feels like ages. I find myself wanting to be with him all the time. I stayed at his house every night last week, not wanting to go back to a place i don’t feel welcome.

He’s everything and i’m sacred. It’s too soon. It isn’t love. But i adore him. Very much.

It’s been crazy….but worth it.

and I intent to keep it this way

Great, if it’s with the right person
Well yeah..
Love is Love
It was true, mad, deep, with many ups and downs
Maybe it wasn’t so great for my mental state..
But ok, I achieved this goal

A tenative yes?

this is definately something i want to do…yes, iv got my boyfriend, but im not “in love” with him…i love him, but im not “in love” with him
i like taking things slow, but someday, i hope to be in love with him or at least someone, i bet it would be amazing…but im still young, iv got time

I have accomplished this, without any effort whatsoever. I have been blessed with an absolutely AMAZING man, and I thank God every day for him.