it’s that I acknowledge that there are forces beyond my control here. (My child and the man I made her with.)

This place is a wreck most of the time. But I’m trying to be more philosophical about that. So long as it’s reasonably clean most of the time, I can deal. And R has been helping quite a bit. The only way it’s going to improve past this point is if he goes back to work and A goes back to spending the day with Pop-Pop. (It’s far easier to keep this place clean if I’m the only one in it all day.)

Bottom line is, if things pan out the way I’m hoping they will, this fall I will be working full time and going to grad school full time. And hopefully selling jewelry and freelancing a bit on the side. I will barely have time to eat and sleep, let alone worry about how sticky my kitchen floor is. So I’m putting this on the back burner for now. 3 months ago

Sadly, most of the housework around here gets done when R sees that I’m upset about something and doesn’t know how to fix it. (A clean house always makes me happier.)

So I’m going to make this a higher priority this year. Somehow. (Still working out the “how” part.) 4 months ago