I am trying to cut back but have had a couple of beers and will likely have a couple more. The goal is to not drink so much that I text the lying cheater. The goal is not contact, and he is why I need go get my life back together.
Jun 28, 01:41PM PDT | 2 comments
My will to not talk to him breaks down when I drink, so today I’ll have a couple of glasses of wine, and that’s it
Jun 28, 06:45AM PDT | 0 comments
1. realizing what I’m doing
2. not beating up on myself for doing it
3. looking at the situation objectively
4. noticing when I’m drinking to relax vs. when I’m drinking to soothe myself because i think it’s the only thing that will work.
It’s getting better, slowly but surely.
Jun 24, 12:14PM PDT | 3 cheers | 2 comments
drinking vodka EVERYNIGHT for about a year now, it’s crazy. not even that i just turned 20 been drinking since 16 but just reacently it’s been a year straight, thinking i’m on the road to waking up to shakes and puking in the morning cause i don’t have booze in my system, in fact this morning was the first that that happened. idk how to stop or slow down. it makes me feel happy…er? well when i am drinking it’s usually to get away from how misrable i am, so yes i think it’s a deeper problem but for now the vodka cures whatever is going on in my head. i hate where i am in life and i think thats why i drink so much, but yet i wanted to see if it was the drinking that was making my situation worse, but i don’t know how to put it on pause so i could see just for a month even if thats possible to see if that was the case, even as i write this now i’m backspacing so much just to make sure i make every word right. drunk as hell. yet another night i pass out instead of falling asleap. how the hell am i sapose to get out of this habit?
i just want to be happy with my life. and at the moment this seems the only way out, even for just a few hours…..........
Nov 13, 2008, 01:28AM PST | 3 cheers | 2 comments
I never wrote about myself before in this way but feel that something needs to happen for me to change. I hope this site and seeing other people battling with the same issues will support me in my goal to quit boozing or at least cut back. I’m tired of continously making an ass of myself in bars, tired of being broke all the time, tired of the black-outs. I am a daily drinker who was once and for all decided that today will be the first day without booze since about as far back as I can remember. My goal is to last a month to prove to myself that I can be booze-free. Looking forward to life without booze!
Sep 30, 2008, 08:32PM PDT | 1 cheer | 1 comment
OK….so I really stuffed up on the weekend. On both Friday night and Saturday night I was up til 4.30-5am drinking on my own. Feel bad, really really bad as this was the very thing I have been trying to cut out.
I guess I am going to have to go back to the “STOP DRINKING” Post rather than “STOP DRINKING SO MUCH”.
I was doing so well before this :-(
Sep 28, 2008, 08:58PM PDT | 3 cheers | 2 comments
In the past several years I started drinking every evening. Sometimes its a couple glasses of wine, other times a couple vodka tonics..but I can’t seem to make it through one night without several drinks. I just feel I need it to relax and feel happy and calm. I don’t want to stop drinking, I just don’t want to “have to” drink every night. Any suggestions for a substitute behavior? Tea? Anything?
Help is appreciated!!
Sep 25, 2008, 07:54AM PDT | 0 comments
I just commemnted on someone else’s post and wanted to share it here with others as well…
Hey there, you are so right about enjoying a few drinks for what they are. And this week I have only had 3 drinks, which is insane for me also – capable of drinking 30 standard drinks in one sitting no problems. In fact I have had many a great afternoon, drinking wine with friends who also drink too much, and consider those afternoons as great times in my life.
The difference between me and my friends however, is that at worst, I will go home and keep drinking until I pass out at 5am, at best, go home and have another bottle of wine by myself. Some days I have woken up at 3pm, not knowing what the hell happened.
NO MORE. Feeling tired at the normal time and going to bed feels so good. No more sleeping through the alarm and waking at 2pm when I was supposed to be at work by 8.30am, and seeing 10+ missed calls on my mobile from my boss. No more sneaking drinks from other people again. No more choosing alcohol over my boyfriend, who I treasure so so much and can’t believe I have done this so many times. No more hurting myself, no more walking home in the dark, all stumbling around and shit, after the pub.
The list goes on.
Someday I will be able to JUST have 3 drinks with friends and leave it there, not feel the need to go home and booze on by myself. I am trying to grow a stop button….and if I don’t have one then I will have to give it away completley. I really don’t want to do that though.
Sep 20, 2008, 03:42AM PDT | 1 comment
day 7....ooooh
14 months ago
hi there everyone, I made it through last night without opening the bottle of wine and I just may make it through tonight as well. Hurrah! its like I don’t want to have the “one” drink unless there is a good reason. And right now there’s not.
I’m 800 words into the assignment I was stressing about, 1200 words to go. Its not the writing, its the fact it all has to be referenced to “respected titles in industry”, so whatever I say in the piece, I have to go and find someone published that said it also. So I’ll see how I go. Maybe once I have handed in this assignment I can reward myself with a glass of wine. Back to that again….
I hope everyone else is doing OK tonight. I watched Jill’s intervention on YouTube last night and it was really homehitting, I watched heaps of them actually. here is the link for anyone interested http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNkqpPuMAnI.
Nothing else doing really, except avoiding the assignment.
Cheers (with can of coke in hand).
Jenny
Sep 20, 2008, 03:27AM PDT | 0 comments
OK. So its Friday night. How is everyone doing. My partner sat me down once again and said to me it is OK to drink one or two if I want to, so right now there is a full bottle of wine in the fridge. I am thinking of having one while we watch a movie.
But then I could choose not to. I would only be having it for the sake of it. I can trust myself not to drink the whole thing. Also I have an assignment due at uni on Tuesday next week so I simply can’t afford to get blitzed and write off tomorrow.
Feeling pretty good, had a headache earlier on though….could this be a sign of withdrawal? I drank heaps of water today so its not dehydration!
Lets all raise our glasses of water!! Hurrah! Also, it helps to watch “Intervention” videos on YouTube (is a little mean to make self feel better because of others that are worse….is this not passing judgement).
Happy, healthy and clean goodnight to all. I will report back on whether or not I had the glass of wine tomorrow but at this stage I am not too bothered about it.
Love to all. x
Sep 19, 2008, 05:28AM PDT | 1 cheer | 0 comments