control my tongue

I have been really good lately, but my father’s wife really gets on my goat. I had to give her a good tongue lashing yesterday. I have never in my life met anyone so rude. There’s only so much one can take, especially when I’ve been in hospital.

I say the wrong thing over and over again. Why????? I do the wrong thing over and over again.

I’m complaining too much about this girl at work. I have to stop doing that. I have to let go.

I notice it more every day. I still choose to speak the words I shouldn’t. Especially, I notice it at my new job. I know I shouldn’t say certain things. I know they are not good for me. I say them anyway. Still, the fact that I recognize them so clearly, I think is progress.

I’m doing better on this. I catch myself thinking before speaking, but now I HAVE to do more than think, I actually have to stop myself BEFORE I get involved in the conversation. I have to think, count to 5, think it’s not worth it, and then let it go. I have to understand that proving my point and explaining myself doesn’t really accomplish ANYTHING. If someone is interested, they’ll ask. This is part of my trying to help/control others. I want to help people so bad, but trying can make you miserable. I need to give them freedom, or more like I need to free myself from this responsibility. I should build and equip myself better, I should spend time doing that without feeling selfish, and then , when I’m needed, I can truly help. That might be more empowering at the end.

Well, not been able to read this apparently…Need to make a conscious effort…Why do I get caught unnecessarily and end up trying to be a saint???

There is a difference between what people (who are not close to me) need to know and should know. Very often, I find myself telling them things that …well, they need not know!
What is the need for people who are not really my best friends to know things that is not going to make any difference in their lives…..
The next week, I will have to consciously exercise restraint over this….think before I speak or share my thoughts!