control my ADHD

Bloody hell. This is a painfully slow journey. I’ve tried Concerta, that was a bust, insane palpitations. I’m now on Strattera (this is the 3rd week) it’s going okay so far, side effects haven’t been too bad, can take 4-6 weeks to work and I’m seeing my doctor in a few days so I’m going to ride this one out for a few more weeks and see if it makes a difference; I hope it kicks in soon, I have so much work to do it’s unreal!!!

This is just so difficult.. No one in Wales Specialises in ADHD, the Doctor I went to see is doing it out of a special interest.. It could take up to 4 weeks to diagnose, I’m absolutely terrified, not about having it but that they might tell me I don’t, and I know that I do, I just forgot so many things when the Doctor asked me questions.. I really need someone to tell me what’s wrong with me and how to fix it, I’m so lost and my head is overrun with thoughts, more so than usual. I’ve got a fucking dissertation to do and I don’t even know how to start. I need there to be a solution now, I feel like I’m running out of time.

My inability to focus is becoming a hindrance and i’ve come to the point where i cannot for the life of me control what i’m doing and it’s incredibly annoying. It’s effecting my life more so than before so i’ve decided to do something about it, slightly later than i should have, i’m waiting to hear back from a psychologist in my area but it’s been painstakingly long since i was referred and it’s driving me crazy. At such an important junction in my life i really need to be able to concentrate on the path ahead but i can’t do it on my own. I’ve been trying to do it on my own for years and i’ve gone nowhere and so my magical quest begins, it actually makes me stupidly happy that i might be able to achieve all the things i want, i don’t want to be “normal”, it isn’t about that at all, i just want to utilise all the abilities i have in order to further my future.. in the meantime i’m trying really hard to discipline myself but it’s proving particularly difficult. But i’ll do it. Viva La Revolution!...umm. or something like that..

I can hardly ever sit through an entire movie unless I find it truly compelling…I find that I need constant stimulation or I become over-anxious. I just want to be able to relax & get organized!

ok…I am a 30 year old male and I have ADHD, I currently take Conserta and I am trying to control it….but you know what it is really hard,,,,, I also have a wonderful finance who is depressed and I am not dealing with it well….can anyone help me??

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