decide what to do next

Ive just deceided im bored.. aend I want to make a move… I think its going to be back to UK.. I,d even considered staying here but Im bored.. sunshine (too hot) .. peace (too fucking peaceful)..I think its time I planned a move back to life.

I’m marking this done even though it’s something that will always need doing again because I’ve done it for the immediate time period that I was thinking about when I added it. I’ve graduated now and after taking the Spanish for foreigners exam in the end of August I’m doing some consulting work and going to Nepal for an internship. I’m not sure how long I’ll be there, but it will be at least 4 months. I’m also planning to take the GREs and apply to grad school for next fall while I’m there, so I guess I’ve got this figured out for the next few years assuming all goes as planned. That’s a scary thought…plans have been so last minute and changing in the last few years, and I love that.

Done! I’ll go postdoc-hopping :)

The script is written, the location is set, the actors are auditioning and everything is falling into place for my third film. Can’t wait to come back to share more info when I can!

I’m taking my time and am really trying to be calm, but making the decision is not getting any easier. The downside is that it’s also affecting my other decisions.

Both sides have been extremely nice and patient with me, basically leaving all the decision-making to me. I hate to waste their time by making them to go through the process in parallel, even though they seem to be very understanding.

One thing that I have to do (but have been avoiding lately) is to write down my values, priorities, and interests. By this weekend, I shall finalize the decision… probably by a coin toss :)

well it just started coming together on its own i didnt even try, my psychiatrist actually got me a job it was aweseom. she asked me how i was doing and i said really good, and that i was actually thinking about getting a job and shes like…really…and she picked up the phone. so whats next is start working…which i’m not good at. i hate waking up early to go to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!FCUK but its all good, i can do it, im not smoking weed anymore (as much) so i’m not gonna wake up tired and just say fuck it. i’ll wake up tired and drink some coffee or something.

The classic question… isn’t it? It reminds me of a poem I read somewhere way back: “To go is always the rule, to stay, an exception…,” which is, of course, too abstract to be taken literally.

Should I stay here as a postdoc (which will be followed, probably, with another postdoc somewhere else), or should I go ahead and take the position I’m offered?

The main question is whether I am ready. There are still things that I want to learn and skills I want to develop, and I’m not sure if jumping at the first available position is the right thing to do. And my friends are here, which I want to stay close to (I don’t know how the bad-*%# Faustus became a softy… excuse my language, but I don’t know the polite word for it!). On the other hand, there is the excitement in trying out something totally new, and there is the appealing idea of independence.

I think I’ll do the standard thing… talk to as many people as I can to get more information, and make a list of pros/cons (I know that it doesn’t mean much, but it’s part of the process).

yeah. i know what i’m doing next year, but until then is stil unclear

I have some choices forced upon me as my plan seems to have fallen through because of some mistakes, unclearness, and annoyances by my university and the one I had been planning to go back to next year. Now I have to decide what I want to do, whether to continue school in the spring or next fall, what kind of schooling to continue with, and what to do after August. So many ideas, most of them unrealistic or unobtainable, most of those only because it’s so late to be applying for many of the things I want to do…arrgh…I had it all working as I wanted it, now it’s all up in the air.
Oh well, I’m sure whatever I end up doing I’ll enjoy and it’ll be for the best.

Othertimes there are too many options-
My current contract finishes in February and I can go to anywhere