Hard to say.

Nick, lai, ding .

Yes, they doing good to me, we rely on each other in some extend.

We can go out for lunch.

Good.

Enough.

Noir is okey, if I have spare time. 9 months ago

Truth is he don’t care who he loves more, all he care is how to optimize his benefit. And you know what he need, then things goes easier.

Leave him along, u know how to do that.

Have your own life, one day it’s easy to be shiny, but now u shouldn’t do much things on it. No one know the truth, am I 放下了？

yes, if I live well I don’t care, if I live not well I feel so bad when they happy. It’s not because of the love affair, it’s because I didn’t have that right now.

Friends, always the same, god will tell me the answer, nig thing is put down, small things is not down. How to face it?

I am not the one do guilty things, I show my sadness.

In short, it’s not worthy.
I can do, but not now, and isn’t the revenge stain my heart? Or makes me stronger?

I know the best solution. One day, he isjust a joke for my friend. I live my life well, still purified, still happy, in my own way, and strong. 围棋，the best way is through away the small part 10 months ago

Friend?
New friend? Let me see…
Father, mother,meimei
Yes!ask dianyuan! 10 months ago

lai has gf, he ignore me is reasonable, however, i am not comfortable about that , and sometime thought sth he hurt me and I tolerate him, and now I want to revenge back.

is it reasonable? No!

remember what u want , not whats unfair!
u will always get what u NEED, but give up everything u GREED. 10 months ago

Best is they break up, then there will be our 3 again, seems not possible.

Second, I don’t know, maybe I need to talk with somebody.

Find somebody else!
Right!

Time to say bye right now to lai

I need new friend!

Shit!
Haha, be wisdom, everything is possible. 10 months ago

I am sad.
I am ignored by lai, he is my friend!
All he see is his girlfriend now!

Unfair!

Actually, not so bad, I just need a bf, or have happy myself.
What u give will turn sth back to u. Now jing is have no hostility on me. And it’s healthier status. 10 months ago

Whenever I need him, I will come to you once.

And like 武侠, I want a 信物，
I am leaving.
U said when I face big trouble, u will do what u can to help me, right? I believe u will be somebody one day, and I will need ur help. But I don’t know what is it. Maybe me, maybe my children.

I feel safe and warm to remember u, I may not come to you forever, but I don’t want to forget u. I want sth U teach me a lot. 10 months ago

ask for my feeling before jing;

i win the trust, he tell me secret and tell me things about them.

they live a boring afternoon, but i live a life energetic.

she envy me , and i feel revenged. he compare gf with me and I WIN! he didnt buy expensive things for me as his gf, but i dont need it. what i need is my confidence for my integrety. and it made me know men more. i learn to love myself before everything, I learn to be peaceful and made a home for a man. then i have ability to hold other heart.

its all done.

they have their life, i have mine.

what i need with lai is ?

his advise for getting a relationship? He is not willing to help.

a better position than jing? i dont really NEED it.

no, what I need is learn from him, the man’s view on how to make a career. He is just a KID.

so? what I NEED from him? I dont know!
I should have some expectation. En… Yes, I I will try to figure out anything made me feel good.

what if I need comfort? lai is not useful seems.

meimei can. and nick can. 10 months ago

无缘的坚持，就是居心叵测，让人难受 12 months ago

I needn’t pretend or show anything happy or independence. just be myself and think above ego,then you will know what man’s nature goes like,and know what I want, what I can improve and just do it now.

I am already smartly stop my mind at right time. What I want to do right now in douban is record my growth toward an elegant girl, more and more wise in a spiral-progress way, up and down.

It’s nothing to do with Noir now, he is the igniter, but the fuel is I want a friend like that to make a better completance in life, If I am a right person, I will find the right one.

Loyalty is not about focus on one person, but about make reasonable promise and keep it long. 12 months ago

If he didn’t choose it must be some reason. Can’t be changed by the way you treat him.

If he give you hope, its cloud. You can only attract him, that’s the only way. Stay where you are, be yourself. That’s the right way for your lifelong happiness.

Stay where you are, and be your best.

You already did what a friend can do, next, just back to your life. If he gives you hope, seperate if it’s valuable one or just white noise or just immature affection. Let them mature itself.Once you accept the growth stopped.

Once you decide, you should learn, from whether it’s true or teasing. Just wait.

The best way is being nature with no extra expectation, as a girl, then it’s no matter you come near him or stay long away, you can be yourself, nothing will bother you. You can feel the hint from the destiny clearly without ego. And do things above purpose. 12 months ago

I did everything I can imagine for noir.

Perserverance, patience and psychologically smart within my ability. I learned a lot from this.

Nothing regret for me, I can start my own life now.

my best blessing for noir, hope one day, he will be psychologically safe to build initiate relationship with others. Please learn to face your disappointment, face the downhill path of your life.

Please be brave, please be strong. 12 months ago

For those who try everything to keep relation with valuable friends, you would better make your friends try everything to keep in touch with valuable guys like you.

Be glorious, be wiser and be incomparable. 12 months ago

So I must be stronger, he is not the man I stick to, it’s the man urge me fighting.

Now, as for nick, as for shaojie, they all made me a more wonderful lady.
和她共处使我更优秀他能给我这种感觉，我必须让他也有这种感觉，不论是让他有幻想而追逐的动力，还是激发他的潜在自我成长，还是从我身上获得能量智慧，还是让他以与我为伍而骄傲，我必须要让他觉得我有价值。
I want to be friends after all. Will I? Be friends with Noir, I know he have special view of life. I must arouse his fantastic imagination, deeply, I must be stronger, wiser, have a better tag, that’s the only way to build friendship.

Win my own respect, then win his respect. Always remember this is the only way to build lifelong friendship. No matter for him, or for other guys in the future.

Once there is a sign, show ignorance to you, that’s a honest message saying I still don’t need you yet. No need to feel dishonored or revenging, it’s nothing wrong with your dignity or action.

Just test the boundary again.千万不要让他觉得和你在一起是他对命运的妥协，是他在吃亏，是降低了变优秀的指望。 12 months ago

I have show everything I think important, there is nothing I may be regret, now what I should is to build myself, to be excellent enough to match his level.

This is the most important thing I should do in America, he is the motive, but not the result. I must be smarter, nothing can take the place of being like that.

I must have a famous tag, that,s only way how he will respect me.

Whether I come near him or far away, it’s not important for long term respect, it’s the study ability, the social level that really matter.

If you have no way to uplevel your level, then you can only try psychological skill, but that’s short term effect after all.

So just respect yourself, be your best, then he will come to you, or better friend will surround you. 12 months ago

还是要善良，还是要信任。

把怀疑说出来，一切就会简单很多 13 months ago

我的底线是什么，什么会让我不舒服？

受了委屈，说不上来哪里不对，就是不舒服该怎么办呢？嗯，心有多大，舞台就有多大

我不想当个很没用的被欺负的人呀.每一分欺负，也都是赐予你的一份力量，妥善使用，效果无限。要把它用在正确的方向就好

与人打交道，该怎么样保护自己呢？

人群果然还是很危险呀，算啦，该补的课总是要补的

做个有担当的女孩子

勇敢尝试，就会更深刻 14 months ago

Or take me not so important any more.

What can I do? One day you don’t have the same destination, your relationship is pending.

You should eat the shit first.

Then, if you have kinda of illusion on whether you love Him or he love you. Just keep calm down, this maybe true, maybe false, the thoughts can alter 10 times a day, but if he didn’t show any action , it means nothing happened.

you don’t need to be bothered by that. As time goes , if the emotion accumulated enough, it will happen any way. Don’t need to try to make it happen earlier, unnatural . Follow the accumulation, what will happen, it blossom naturally, what is by accident, time will fade the minor thought away. 14 months ago

Lai consider my tolerate as silly and weakness, which hurt my self-esteem.

what should I do to win his respect?

1, don’t show off. Because you have nothing deserve to fresh him the abandoned impression. Just ignore his existence. Like he is a fly, every time he try to bother you, wave your hand.until he cross his protective boundary, still ignore until you feel shining enough to ignore him equally, you can make friend with him again.

2, find the proper task you have, recently the exam and the internship. And focus as if you want to kill the teacher and boss.

3, should I be nice or polite to him to show my big mind? Show I don’t care? Don’t want let him know he is influence on you? Don’t want him to be arrogant?
Just ignore what he feel , what he like, treat him just like a 浮云。一笑而过，enough。

4, Dance in the rain.

5, don’t imagine he remember any of the happy moment you experience. It’s all from the moment he feel crazy about her.And now he just feel arrogant on how charming he is right now… 14 months ago

1 Lai Shaijie
2 Nick

they are the one who appreciate me , and we can trust each other. and I always try to confort them in some way, and it did work!

I fall in love with them for a while, but its just kind of affection, they did not smooth my deep fretfulness. I don’t know who can.

maybe just time is not long enough.

and the third one I think I want is still Noir. He have a different view of life, I want to be part of his life and to see what difference.

first, I should try to book the translation he did , and type it down, or use other way.everyday a little. he is the one most likely to open a bookstore, I also like that!

maybe from the next month. 15 months ago

Like find the flight ticket not booked in the last day…
Drive me crazy!!!!
The price is even 40% higher than normal, terrible!!!!

What should I do first, confort his mistake first?

I shouldn’t blame or complain, but I don’t want him to do this kind of thing again, what should I do? 17 months ago

now i touch with Noir, yesterday, I think it for a long run we can actually become friend. because we both want a bookstore!

But he seems dont reply to me yet, I think is because I show too much interests in him, how can i do to get close to him? he may think i like him, thats another problem.

god give me some advise~!!! 17 months ago

But there is no one business character that around me. I need to find one like that. I want do business with him, of cause it can be girl, but I seldom see girls do business abroad.
I have about 20,000 dollar(however most of them is RMB), I want to cooperate with the guy friend, but where can I find a person like that? 18 months ago

i feel just terrible when male friend put his hand on my shoulder when taking photo. Seems too Intimate and unnatural . And I feel disgusting if I am slow to refuse such action. Why they like to do that?that’s the difference between man and woman?horrible!

Next time , I will warn them if they just made me uncomfortable . They may not notice what they do is kind of impolite .

If they think I made great fuss about nothing, Ok, I accept .
If they just want to be boyfriend of mine, please be natural, please dont plot to do it, don’t choose wrong time to disgust me. 19 months ago

Now things go upside down, the one who I show love to be a friend always fall in love with me. Keep a proper distance is so difficult. 19 months ago

what if I fall in love with him? 22 months ago

I want their view of life, which maybe much different from house-centered girls ; male makes me less presure. enhance the skill to conmmunicate with boys.

honestly,male friend shuold be such a person. 22 months ago

beautiful dresses and cosmetics don’t make me feel safe enough, but blog let me open my mind and show sth different and useful of me.

Show happiless lifestyle, my recent progress , my need , and my useful messages 22 months ago

It seems I always fall in love with male friends when showing friendship to them!!! 22 months ago