newvanessa hasn't been here in a long time
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8 months ago
working on it…doing better.
How to be happy by myself
It made me
less frightened. 
"this was worth doing. "
How I did it: basically you gotta stop depending on people outside of you to make you happy and solve your problems for you. It just takes a little self-reliance, positive action, and perseverance.
Lessons & tips: dont be afraid to do research. being happy by yourself doesnt mean you have to be alone. I still get lonely sometimes, but I don't feel as overwhelmed.
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Verona
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newvanessa hasn't been here in a long time
Monday night...
10 months ago
Home by myself…
On line looking for a convertible,doing laundry..
Not crying….got stood up for tennis…watching olympics..
Good.
newvanessa hasn't been here in a long time
Thursday..
11 months ago
It’s Thursday and I am in a fairly good mood and all alone here….
This is good.
Untitled
2 years ago
My ex is getting married, the ones around me are “we-should-be-friends”. I’ve run out of people to be in love with, so I’m going to have to be happy by myself.
Ready? Let’s go.
Today...
2 years ago
I realized that I completely obsessed about hooking up with the ex. It happened. No one is hurt. I dont know why I made such a big deal out of that.
I’m happy, healthy, more fortunate than many. I attended a wedding this weekend and had not a SINGLE thought of getting married. The guy sitting next to me at the reception was laying it on thick, telling me how successful he is…and I asked him questions and was polite and left without a second thought about dating.
I’m enjoying school, enjoying friends, enjoying my little home. I’m trying new things and I know God loves me and has not forgotten about me.
I’m consider this goal…achieved.
Loss of control
2 years ago
loss of control
its funny – empressjuju was wrting to commend me on self control while I was losing self control.
I hooked up with the ex. :(
I had to give a lot of myself away to so many people over the past few weeks but it had been so long since someone had emotionally put anything back into me.
I am not bottomless. While I have great capacity to love and help others, I am not bottomless.
He came around, its like he knew something was wrong…and we talked for awhile, he listened so well. It had been so long since I’ve been touched like that. My flesh took over…in the moment, it was all so….good.
And now? It was a dumb thing to do.
....sigh….
I'm proud of myself today...
2 years ago
had a chance to “hook up” with an ex-boyfriend who I really dig physically…nuf said…but he’s not very good for me emotionally or intellectually.
I said no.
Reminding myself of why we split up in the first place….
