have my dream job

about to end, I realize once again that I am doing exactly what I should be doing with my life. I can’t wait for school to start again and I can’t wait to graduate so I can start my dream career!

was to teach theater! Only 2 and a half more years and I’ll have my degree. Oh I can’t wait.

this topic came up at dinner the other night. someone mentioned someone they knew who had a similar job, and i said “i’ve always wanted to work for…., to be an …” i talked alot about the training involved, how i’d started but gotten distracted. people were interested and supported, but i felt self-conscious and privately mournful; i felt that the moment had passed and that this is something i “had wanted” to do, but not something i “am going” to do. i observe myself and wonder now what is really in my heart? will i allow myself to pursue this? will i allow myself to believe no, it is not too late?

I don’t want to say too much publicly, but I know exactly what my dream job is. I just have never known exactly how to go about getting it, and I’ve had some internal obstacles in the way of achieving it. It requires alot of specialized knowledge, a base of which I have and I continue to acquire. I think it will require a lot of professional networking, which is something I’m not entirely comforable with. It also will require a well of self-confidence and faith. I know though that when I have this job I will be great at it.

journalist for a fashion magazine. oh god, that would be heaven.