make art that excites me

i like basketball and football i played football last year and basketball this year

i finished the painting i was working on, and i like it a lot. i was proud of myself for finishing it, but also while i was working on it i thought of a more ambitious version i would like to try. so unfortunately, i’m not sure i can mark this goal as done, and i’m afraid that if i finish the next one, the same thing will happen again! i guess that’s not bad, except in terms of checking off my goals :)

i can draw..but everytime i see what i draw im not happy with it
i also can write songs..but everytime i listen to it again i keep saying,..no this is not good enough
i can write ..but everytime i read it again ..i can feel that..man you need much more to learn

I really want to work towards this goal, I haven’t achieved it for a while, and its been a constant struggle in my life, keeps me from making work and from taking my art seriously.
Even with intermittent stints of production, I’m still struggling to find a core concept/ problem /sensibility that gains and holds momentum , compels some form of evolving practice or intention I can delve into and feel invested in- it’s bitch getting motivated to create when I feel so aimless. Hopefully, having signed on for the goal to create art every day will progress this one- I’m thinking being consistent in the act itself will chip away at whatever the hell my block is- I know the source is there somewhere…

i’m working on a painting i like a lot at the moment. two things excite me about it: it’s based on a dream or vision state, which was a sudden flash of inspiration for me—i feel like i could come up with an almost endless amount of subject matter this way, and it’s a very stylized type of depiction that i really enjoy. now if i can just finish it that will be something…