be a healthy weight

I want to be 8 stone which is a healthy weight for my height.
I WANT to gain weight, FYI.
Wish me luck!!

this shit sucks i’m fat i can’t maintain weight for shit. i guess its better to be 117 than 161 LBS. i’m pissed that i’m so fucking fat!!!!

damn i wish ther was a day that i didn’t worry about my weight and food and how much i consume. i want to crawl in a hole in die or wish someone would shot me dead. i also worry about other mpeople making me eat when i don’t want to or willing to eat that certain food. my lord i make my self sick!!!

life sucks, sometimes. no matter what i do i want to lose weight but i keep on bingeing and over exercising. this morning i dropped 2 lbs, but then i’ll be up 5 lbs in the next day are so. i just can’t find a healthy medium. i make myself sick

when i graduated high school in 2004 i weighed 161 lbs. 5'5 and now two years later, i'm 112. people look me and wonder how i did it. well, i rode the non stop diet roller coater. i’mm gain some and lose some. but currently i binge eat and exercise throughtout the day, i don’t have a job but i go to school at night. my problem is i always worry what i’m going to eat and how many calories is it and is it good for me. the smallest weight i have been was 94 lbs!!(i made a friend cry). the saddest thing to tell you all, ive been shoving my fingers down my throat since i was 14, and its been 6 yrs. now. even worse my mom and aunt suffered from the same sin when they were young