it’s been a year and a half now since i heard from him. girls, if you tried googling him and this stuff came up, please heed the warnings. he still owes me a thousand dollars, he never called again, and i think i picked up a real cute STD from him.
basically charming. so yeah.
below is original entry.
he hasnt been around for the past couple of days, so i finally asked his roommate when he’d be back. chuck said “uh, he’s in vegas with some girl he met.”
beautiful.
things aren’t over between me and chad. ill go back for the sex. but i will never, ever let him tell me he has feelings for me again. i am not that stupid. 5 years ago
so i talked to neil tonight. he didnt realize how much i really liked chad. hes also worried that ill never feel the same way about him that he feels about me. its like the passion isnt there on my end. i worry about the same thing.
picking between him and chad is impossible. a logical person would choose neil. a sane person would choose neil. sadly, i am neither. they are both gorgeous, funny, ambitious, and sweet. and i love them both. cant they learn to timeshare??? 5 years ago
things are still looking positive for a future for me and him. we talked on the phone a lot today. hes going job-hunting tomorrow in valencia, and hes comparing final offers on apartments right now. he also quit modeling. im sad about the loss of the income (and the way i could say “oh, my boyfriend? he’s a model. maybe youve seen him before…”), but im proud of him for going back to school and trying to start his life over. hopefully, he’ll get a job within the next few days and then be in school in a couple weeks. and be in his new apartment. i told him id help him in any way i could to get him where he wants to be.
im terrified that he’ll get back together with jennifer. he says dating her proved to him that he really for sure wants to be with me, which is something ive done before too, but i had healed from the blow of “i got back together with jennifer”. i tell him we’re not officially dating again, but i can feel myself letting him back into my heart.
i just want things to go well. frankly i need to get back to california. ive been home for two weeks… isnt that long enough??? hes sick right now with a bad cold, and i want to be there to sexily nurse him back to health. and to nag him into getting all this stuff done. what? i was his fiance – nagging is my business.
i hope he proves himself. i hope everything he told me is true. i hope he really wants to commit to a relationship again, commit to us. we’ll see… i havent added this goal back to the list yet, though. 5 years ago
he went to the hospital last night for an asthma attack, and jennifer decided to get high instead of going with him. things have apparently been going badly in the week theyve been together again, so he broke up with her. i told him if he wanted to date me again (which he does), he has to do the following:
1) pay me back the money he owes me
2) show proof of his college education
3) show proof of his time in the army
4) show me some of his modeling work
5) show me the bank statements from the accounts he says he has
he doesnt want to show me the bank accounts, so perhaps ill compromise just a little bit. but i also want to see his current contract, his current school info at the art institute, and i want him to have a job. before he can get back with me, he will be a responsible adult and trustworthy boyfriend.
in the mean time, im walking on air. im so happy he wants to be with me again. his friend lake called him and asked why i hadnt been at the clubs this weekend with him. chad told lake he was back with jennifer. lake went “oh no! but shes such a bitch! i like jessica! shes cute and nice!” so, go me. 5 years ago
he dumped me for his ex. 5 years ago
we picked a date… june 16th, 2007. exactly one year from today. 5 years ago
chad just arranged to do a job in chicago in late june… that means hes coming to see ME!!! he gets to meet my family and see where i grew up and everything. i think, just maybe, he might pull my dad aside and ask if he can propose to me. this is so awesome! 5 years ago
haha, i had to change this goal slightly because when i had his last name on here, it showed up as the first results on google. i know we’re basically engaged now, but i still dont want to freak him out big time.
i have gotten approval from all of my friends, whether they know it or not. anthony is just in love with chad, because he has money and he knows sarah jessica parker. yael and nathaniel have said they can see how happy he makes me, and thats the most important thing to them. nathaniel also is really happy he took the student loans over the modeling contract. education really is the most important thing.
i want chad to propose to me officially, with the ring and everything, so that i can tell everyone.
he should be coming back from valencia to stay with me tonight… 5 years ago
i told anthony that chad proposed to me. now anthony is all “ehhhhh” about it. i probably shouldnt have told him, but i want people to know how happy i am. sure, nothings finalized yet, but i want to spread the happy FUCKING NEWS!!!! 5 years ago
now that we’re three hours into tuesday, chad and i have been dating for more than two weeks. i love him so much. soon ill update a picture of the ring he wants to propose to me with :)
he left this morning to get a few things done in valencia. hes added me to his bank account and paid me back for this past weekend. his student loans were APPROVED by the art institute, so he’ll be starting there july 10th. hes looking for a job and an apartment close to me. im so excited to spend the rest of my life with this man. 5 years ago
he asked me to marry him. so it looks like this goal is coming along pretty nicely. he showed me the ring he wants to get me… wow. wow. princess-cut diamond in a tension setting on white gold. hyperventilates slightly its ok. its ok. whew.
hes adding me to his bank account this week. i told him he really, really didnt have to do that. he wants to. he said from the moment i said “yes, of course ill marry you”, hes considered me his wife. hes mine. i love him, and im going to marry him. i cant believe that, but its true. we are going to get married. 5 years ago
now it has been ten days.
yesterday he asked me to move in with him. i would, but first of all im already leasing one with my friends, and also my mom and grandma would kill me. he said he’d give me a key to his apartment as soon as he moved in. i told him he was going to make me cry. every time i talk to him, i can feel myself getting flush from excitement and happiness.
i really wish charlotte hadnt been here when i had him over. now when he meets my parents its going to be like “oh. so youre the guy jessica had sleeping in her bed.” and i dont want that. i want them to see him like i see him: as absolutely wonderful.
i know im supposed to marry a guy like neil. a lawyer, or a doctor, or a marketing executive. a VP of regional sales, at least. chad will either work on import cars (he sold his last company that did that for 1.8 million), design clothes, or go back to modeling (LA models offered him 3.5 million for a contract). i told him to go back to modeling for the money, but he said he wants to finish his design degree and get his life in order so he can take care of me.
i love that boy. 5 years ago
we have been officially dating for 9 days now. he makes me want to cry over songs on the radio and give hugs to small children and smile at everyone and everything. we’re already in love and openly admitting it, and he said he can see himself marrying me. are we moving fast? yes. is it scary? yes. but does it feel right? YES.
with other guys, i talked about having kids one day, and it was always sort of a hazy futuristic thing. but with chad, i want them to be his kids.
oh! hes calling right now! 5 years ago
i really dont feel like marryin chad anymore
i dont really want him anymore
i dont really stalk him anymore
i dont really notice his existance
tho at least when i liekd him
i always wanted 2 go 2 skool 2 see him
now its like boom
no more reasons 2 go
and um yea back 2 this
i cant marry sum1 ive said 50 words 2 in my life
this was a dumb goal anyways 6 years ago
i think marrying chad koury is quite extreme and weird, but this passes sum time, and i already spend my days @ skool following him so i dont think this makes me any creepier 6 years ago
