STATUS: A STARTMOOD: Started out quite low, even broke down couple of times when things didn’t work out like the traffic or my laptop had issues or my phone froze (sounds like lil things right now, right !, had me almost crying then…), Gel better as the day progressed
Tasks I accomplished:
1. Completed these extremely important pending Application documents
2. Drank 2 bottles of water (better than none atleast)
3. Attended Doctor’s appointment
4. Exercised – 15 mins
5. Completed some major work related email followup – still some are pending
6. Joined Superbetter
7. Took a good 1/2 hour relaxing break watching my favorite soap
8. Cleaned my Living Room and started cleaning the Kitchen
9. Applied for needed Credit card
10. Called a good friend and spoke to him
11. Emailed a friend a document I was supposed to send a week back
12. Sent a thank-you email to a Friend
13. Played EyeSpy: The Matrix – for improving self-esteem : 5 times
Feels good reporting this…So much was done, Sure, a lot remains, but this is a start… 2 months ago
Any thoughts/quotes/instances that really helped you stay determined and not get into the depression cycle again ? 2 months ago
I plan on writing daily entries on this goal. I have always been this motivated person working on my goals and sure there would be low days and low points but there were high points too…Lately though, I feel like nothing good is happening in my life – I had a major car accident, My role at work sucks right now, I am single with family pressures to get married – all the while making me realize – great, I’m 28 and haven’t yet found someone ! , I am trying to change jobs and nothing good has turned up from those job applications I spent night on after coming back from work – Basically, an all time low !! LOW…LOW…LOW…LOW..LOW..eveyday, I wake up and ask myself – where is the old me ? Why I can’t I find her and Why can’t I see my life the way I used too – sure I knew things weren’t perfect, but I had hope inside me and I smiled..Nowadays, I feel like that the Hope is dead…I have to get out of this rut- It’s been like this since December – 3 whole months of moping and crying and being lethargic and beating myself up about what could be done on time and still I don’t because I just don’t want to wake up and stay under my covers all life long right now…Well, As I’m Single and by myself with my Family 1000s of miles away – I have decided that I have but myself to get out of this gutter..I start today, I have decided to start today ..I count on your cheers to be motivated and plan on reporting my activities and tasks to improve my self esteem… 2 months ago
How I did it: Breaking point was when I was addicted. I was admitted in rehab. There i worked on all my problems and my addiction. They gave me the tools to handle emotions. I had therapy for my traumatic experiences. I feel like i can handle everything now. Read how I did it… 13 months ago
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Seem to get worst when i’m alone for prolonged period of time. Yet i yearn to be alone most of the time. Sugz TTM! 15 months ago
How I did it:
I had been depressed or confused or lazy, whatever ya wanna call it, for a longggggg time. And I began to realllywork on it 2 years ago. And I consistently work on keeping a good head on my shoulders, everyday. However, it's become a really fun process by way of journalling and being my own personal coach.
By keeping up with my goals and completing them, I have found that my self-esteem has sky rocketed.
It has proven very true for me that the more fears I conquer, the less I feel depressed because I can't be depressed when I'm so damn proud of myself.
I have not felt 'actually' depressed in about 1 year and a 1/2. Something snapped me outta my depression when I grabbed at the chance to leave my country of residence and explore life for two months on another side of the world. Dreams that I had squashed at home came alive for me while I was immersed in a different culture. I realized how important my life was. And ever since then, I have not felt depressed.
The only time I can foresee myself becoming 'actually' depressed again is if I stop giving, wanting, receiving, tasting, seeing, feeling, loving, dreaming, breathing.
Good Luck.
Read how I did it… 19 months ago
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