This is a slightly adjusted version of the list I made last summer of things I want to include in my life. When I know what my goal is, it’s easier to start taking small steps towards it.

1. Sunshine
2. Living in the Netherlands (I know, it’s a bit contradictory with number one… haha)
3. Having a small yard where I can spend time and living in a brick/stone house
4. Doing something new on a weekly basis
5. Buying from small shops and farmers’ markets
6. Always having a bottle of wine at home
7. Following what’s happening in the neighbourhood and participating
8. Doing volunteer work with a theme that’s important to me
9. Finding creative outlets
10. Speaking fluent Dutch
11. Having children and raising them bi/trilingual
12. Cherishing my childhood memories and passing them on to my own kids
13. Having enough income to be able to save 10% of it
14. Travelling to see different ways of living
15. Going on an interrail with my boyfriend
16. Being able to do things I enjoy on a whim
17. Inviting friends over at least once a month
18. Having a blog and updating it regularly
19. Having a job in event production that suits my special skills
20. Owning 3 sets of matching, fitting, beautiful lingerie
21. Getting a manicure on a regular basis
22. Splurging on luxuries every now and then (weekend getaways, spas, dinners)
23. Being active in a club
24. Buying organic & local food more than 50% of my consumption
25. Finding simple ways of living (hiking, nature)
26. Taking dance lessons
27. Finding a form of exercise I like
28. Having fresh flowers in the apartment and changing them weekly
29. Having a working, comfortable bike and using it to get to places
30. Having a unique home that combines items from Holland, Finland and abroad
31. Cooking every night and having family time
32. Having a beautiful, clean, fresh bedroom
33. Recycling
34. Having a few chickens in the garden
35. Spending less money on materia and more on experiences
36. Having a beautiful tattoo (or several) that depicts me
37. Living in a lush neighbourhood
38. Wearing more skirts and dresses
39. Going to a zoo/amusement park once a year
40. Travelling to a new place once a year
41. Having paid off my student loan
42. Only buying what I need or love
43. Having a Finnish au pair for my children
44. Having close friends/group of friends to gossip, go to plays, cook and enjoy wine with
45. Seeing my family on a regular basis
46. Living close to water, preferably a river
47. Having something enjoyable to do every day
48. Always looking my best
49. Having a dog
50. Having a beautiful front door 3 weeks ago

First what in the past needs a bit improvement..

1.Looks instead of clothes..I have been able to work on the cultural idea,kind of hard?i need to get down to it,on the other hand my clothing is better.
2.Health..i drink atleast 6 glasses of water a day,need to update to 8,have established a better sleep routine than i ever had in my life,miraculously better but I have my weak days..either way I wake up at 6 every morning without an alarm clock,so I have a biorhythm.
3.my skin..rashes again,i think i know why,can resolve this easily,need to be focussed on detoxification
4.posture and walking..slumped a bit,spending all that time on a chair,will get better though,i will ensure that
5.mental reinvention :Better month than what has been for a long time,but still I get weak,i miss people
6.Life focusing on priorities,Updated,I am focussing on atleast something and better than i have in my entire life,I haven’t been spontaneous recently,but that will change soon.I am trying to sink in lot of emotional information.
7.spiritual reivention..started praying again.and the days went good :)
8.I have given chance for everyone to enter my life,in a good way or bad.still keeping a open heart,just seem to get caught up in walls.
9.I still love the man,with all my heart and soul :)
10.Time,better than ever,developing fluidity at work.

New list..

1.Financial reinvention..Earn at least 40 percent of my costs.Updated.
Learning reinvention..make your own disciplines and follow them,kind of a self enrolled school.updated
2.Physical reinvention..Be in the best shape I have ever been since I was born. =D started the process updated
3.Dreams reinvention..make a list of 5 things i want to finish,as in projects.Start working on them.Deadline,a year,still a bit vague,comes down to a website,2 books,2 other books,a small project for a room and outside.
Short term reinvention..small easily accomplished goals,same as above,deadline 6 months.easily accomplished goals,working on it.
4.Experience stats…Do something that just enriches my life..from travelling,to a new experience.doing updated.
5.And work on the previous list constantly.updated.gonna stay focussed. 3 weeks ago

Maybe people won’t even recognize me. Hopefully within the next 2 or 3 months. 3 weeks ago

It feels good. it’s a step in the right direction. 1 month ago

I had a really really bad day ! which was the best ending of a really bad month !!
Today, I felt really dissappointed and humiliated ! That made me realize that things really need to change !
From now on, I’m not the person anymore ! I can’t be the same person anymore beacause the way Iam is causing me lots of pain..
I’m still trying to figure out the steps I’m going to take toward my new goal. 2 months ago

I still haven’t though . The humira might be working and I just haven’t since I’m so use to the red skin. I guess I’ll noticed whem it seems to be more than just my face. I think I’m going to try a new haircut. I’ve got cut the same way for several years. Maybe it will make a difference. 2 months ago

I believe that one defines oneself by reinvention. To not be like your parents. To not be like your friends. To be yourself. To cut yourself out of stone.
- Henry Rollins 2 months ago

First what in the past needs a bit improvement..

1.Looks instead of clothes..updated.But need to work on.I have a creative idea on this.Based on cultures
2.Health..drinking liquids updated,sleeping on time,miraculously better but I have my weak days..either way I wake up at 6 every morning without an alarm clock,so I have a biorhythm.
3.my skin..it is much better than last year.surprisingly all i did was stop using anything except simple soap,water and moisturizer.Could it have been allergies??
4.posture and walking..really really improved,i still have to remind myself about it.
5.mental reinvention i occasionally get negative,but i have been really feeding right information in my mind.i have absolutely given up on any news on people.recently i lapsed and saw terrible parenting on a site.Makes me wonder why gay parenting is even an issue,when there are mothers out there who are injecting heroin in 6 year olds.But again,never again.
6.Life focusing on priorities,I haven’t been spontaneous recently,but that will change soon.I am trying to sink in lot of emotional information.
7.spiritual reivention..this will never end,and shouldn’t end.occasionally i drift away,but all i need to connect back is doing the same things again.i want a time where I see something to love in everyone.You are only as good as the good you see. =)
8.I have given chance for everyone to enter my life,in a good way or bad.Trouble comes when I cant simply oblige everyone,and some people arent mature to understand that.But it makes you closer to people who you want more in your life.Next goal:Let everyone in my life,but live for people who mean the most to me.
9.The last still applies to me.I think I have developed a ground of tolerance and acceptance,and happiness.I think this is also got to do with having someone love you.
10.Time,better but still an issue.

New list..

1.Financial reinvention..Earn at least 40 percent of my costs.I need it to go to 150 percent,but in time.
Learning reinvention..make your own disciplines and follow them,kind of a self enrolled school.
2.Physical reinvention..Be in the best shape I have ever been since I was born. =D or start the process.Complete a certain perfection in the physical,emotional,nature….health.
3.Dreams reinvention..make a list of 5 things i want to finish,as in projects.Start working on them.Deadline,a year
Short term reinvention..small easily accomplished goals,same as above,deadline 6 months.
4.Experience stats…Do something that just enriches my life..from travelling,to a new experience.
5.And work on the previous list constantly.We have a plan ahead. 3 months ago

I feel like I’m getting closer to being the “new me”. I just started at a fitness boot camp where I’m learning how to eat right and its putting me closer to my goal of running a 5k, one of my dance mates is taking it with me so we’re getting closer, I have been forcing myself to make small talk with people like at the gym, at boot camp, while I’m shopping.

My next step is going to be getting signed up for school for the spring…not excited about that but I think it will be a good step toward a new life. 4 months ago

That’s kind of the purpose of this website I suppose. :) 4 months ago

the weight should come off and I’ll see if the injections are working and I will really try socialize on my own it’s time to start living. I will be a whole new Mark. Hopefully I’ll be able to find someone who i have more in common with. 4 months ago

So I lost 46 lbs, streaked my hair blonder and pretty much changed my wardrobe. I’ve been dating, which I never really did before. I finally got help for my ADD and dystymia. I am happier, and I am better at focused at accomplishing my goals. I’ve made new friends, when the old ones didn’t want to hang out with me anymore. I don’t think I’m the same person as I was a year ago. Not even close. 4 months ago

Still figuring this one out. 4 months ago

There are many things, which I wish I could change in myself; but thanks to my laziness and procrastination, I never change. I want to redeem myself and come out of being slave to my weaknesses and conquer them and reinvent myself. 5 months ago