not disappoint myself

as I take stock of all of my mishigas (craziness in yiddish) so far I’m doing really really well. Tyler is still a bit of a sore spot but until i’m sufficiently distracted everyday I’ll never be able to shake him. It’s just the truth. I am not only not disappointed, i’d say that I’m even proud!

I’ve always felt as though I needed to prove something to myself about what i am going to do with myself. I’v almost felt as though I’ll dissappoint myself no matter what i end up doing but i hope to prove myself wrong. As though i expect more outta myself then anyone else because when i was young most didnt expect much because i had dyslexia. No matter what i do I’m not sure if i’ll ever be satisfied with myself but i’ll prove everyone else wrong and maybe even myself hopefully.