marry the love of my life, and stay married, and live happily ever after

found the love of my life … now just have to wait for my happily ever after ^^ I don’t think I can ever be done with this… its an ongoing process… isn’t it?

One of my ultimate goals. I will find her! she will find me! we will do it!!

sadly, we’re currently not speaking. things ended amicably and officially on my thirtieth birthday. i’d spent two-and-a-half months in a sort of limbo, not knowing what was going on. i tried asking outright and would only receive vague half-answers like, “i want a monogamous, platonic relationship with you.” what does that even mean? it means we’re not dating each other, but you don’t want me to date anyone else. it implies that you’re not dating anyone else, but you also know that i would never ask you if you were.

things had been tense for a while. i don’t feel longing anymore. i don’t feel anything anymore. i still love him, and when it ended he told me, “you know, i still intend to marry you one day.” for the first time, i didn’t cry when i heard that.

it says that it takes an average of two years to attain this goal. i haven’t given up, but i’m exploring other options…

i’m not sure when i posted this as a goal originally. it’s been just over a year with the Viking. granted, we were only a couple for roughly half of the year. things are pretty screwed up right now, actually.

we both admit that there are feelings there. we both admit that we want to be together. but for some stupid reason we aren’t.

wow, i have the feeling it’s time for a “come to jesus”...

I honestly think I’ve found my one
I know people will try to give me the advice that there always could be someone else out there keep your options open you’re not even finished with high school blah blah blah you’re naive and confused and so young you don’t know anything about love
But I’ve never felt so perfect as when I’m with him
sure we have our off days but we work things out
two of my closest friends are getting married and they’ve been dating almost four years and you can just see that they’re are perfect for one another and I see that with us.
He is my other half and we’ve been to hell and back and i have the strongest feeling in my gut that he is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.
P.S. I really don’t want to hear any ones criticism
I already get it in everything else I do

It has been 3 weeks since we spoke and we can’t see each other cause i’m in another country far away from her. should I initiate a conversation with her? in one hand it would be good to see how she is because I do miss her alot.but in the other hand could be that it won’t do good for me and she might take it as “to come back together” offer which is not what I am planning. why relarionships must be so hard? ofcourse I would like to get back together with her but there’s no Love.
I need to be more confident and a leader that she can follow. It’s a natural beaviour of women to let the man take the lead. sorry for all those who read it right now and get offeneded by this but I read about it in psychology of women.you are most welcome to inspire me with your comments

Peace and Love

wasn’t that good, quite boring actually
registered myself to an online date website.
the polish girl is cute but i think she is only looking for sex(which is allways good but not in our case).

he is out there-I know it. He just has to find me…

I don’t know really I’m not to picky about anything but she will have to be Jewish.
:-)

my fiance and i are getting married in february of 2008, ive never been happier, we purchased our first home together a few months ago, and things are shaping up beautifully~!!