stop being embarrassed of my father.

He died..so I guess I can shut up now!

My cousin, Damon, told me that he stopped by to see my father after my brother died. He said that my father told him that his kids were all out to get him and that we had put poison in his food to try to kill him. I have never tried to poison anyone. I do bring my father hot lunches on occasion. He eats them when I am there, so I know he does not really think they are poisoned. He is just crazy. I have to stop caring. This did not really bother me too much because Damon is my cousin and already knows his history.

My father is mentally unwell. I have tried to help him with his living conditions, but he just gets aggravated with me. He is 77 years old. He has not had running water in his home for over 5 years. He is very dirty. His nails are long. His property is littered with junk. He does not believe that I am his daughter. He thinks my mom had an affair with his brother because my hair is light and the rest of the family has dark hair. I know I could have him “put away” but I am afraid if something went wrong and it did not happen that he would literally kill me. I saw him for the first time in 3 years to tell him that my mother had had a stroke. He made an insulting remark and I left. My children are afraid of him. It is terrible. People who have loving fathers should thank them daily.