its not just that no-one likes me, its that im completelt unlovable. i repules myself infact. the sight of me if disgusting!
i only affect everyone elses life in a negative way, and everyone is better than me. i wish i could stand up for myself, but most of my ideas are useless and im scared to confront people when i think im right, like today…. ive been put to do a prefect with someone else in my class (im at collage) and ive done all the work! what right does she have to claim the work? why should she, and she prances on in as if i should have done it all…. the worst thing is that im so angry with her, i get so stressed that i almost start to cry, and then my anger just increased, that i drove home and cut myself. its as if someone’s been shaking up a can of coke and then release it when i bring the needle to my skin. I know that these things not my fault, but i get so angry and have to take it out on myself! its the only thing i can control.
arhhh im confused, i dont know why i think this, it seems completely illogical and if it were anyone else i would be saying ‘ooh its not your fault’ but, from my point of view it is my fault!
