I want to heal my heart 4 months ago

I’m somewhat anti-love at this point. I’ve had some losses in life, but this last one cut very, very deeply. It was good for me, though. I hated feeling so hopeless and angry all the time before it was over, and now, after almost a year, I’m feeling way better. It feels like getting a tiny bit better every day after a chronic illness. “Learning to walk again”.

Being happily single is sooo much fun. I’ve never felt this way before at any point in my life! Always thought I’d be happily married. I’ve always been very romantic in the past.

In short, I’d say love is a great experience and is probably necessary for anyone at some point in life, but it’s waaaaay cooler to be happily alone. LOL. 7 months ago

...is to forgive myself for the mistakes I’ve made. My affirmation for this week is: “I forgive myself with love. I am free.”
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here16 months ago

“I really feel
That I’m losing my best friend
I can’t believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you’re letting go
And if it’s real
Well I don’t want to know”

No Doubt, Don’t Speak

Long time love (love of my life) finally failed. I haven’t been happy lately… seem to have turned into a mean insecure jealous person who isn’t me. Just need to get through this time, and focus on happy thoughts. There IS happiness out there!! At least I’ll respect myself more when I’m through this. 16 months ago

Today I was doing the heart chakra meditation, after my session I noticed a relief. I did yoga and when I was in the final relaxation, suddenly the memory of past pain became so powerful that I had to cry. I let myself feel the pain , I was surprised that a moment that I have seemed to have forgotten for years could put me in that state of vulnerability again. However, I continue letting myself feel the pain, while thinking I forgive, I forgive myself for letting this happen to me, I forgive others…
Now I feel happy, calm and willing to love.I’m on a state of bliss.
What amazes me is that I had rationally forgiven that person years and years ago. I guess.. that I forgave that person only at a very superficial level. Now I know that true forgiveness is only done with your heart.

The Image is “Heart of Healing” by Rita Loyd http://www.nurturingart.com/
When looking for the image I found Rita’s beautiful words:

Healing is possible
when we can gently and compassionately
go inward
and honestly
examine, explore, question and understand
who we are.

by Rita Loyd 22 months ago