be CURED

I’m always sick…whether it’s something as simple as a cough caused by allergies…or like recently…a serious infection in my throat…that wouldn’t heal until 4 antibiotics later…each antibiotic causing another problem…this semester in college I was so motivated at the beginning…all these ideas for helping myself to concentrate on studying easier…and then something out of my hands gets in the way…(throat infection, cough, and diarrhea caused by antibiotics)all at once in a 2-3 week period…causing me to miss a lot of class…I’m tired of it…and all of that effecting my anxiety/stress issues…hate it.

Living again !

this week was kinda tough… finally had to be operated on monday, with general anaesthesia etc… Then, spent 3 days at the hospital with a perfusion. Came back home on wednesday, and have been lying in bed since then. A nurse will have to come every day for 2 months.

Life hasn’t been a lot of fun lately. But everybody around me was really really nice, my family, the nurses, my friends… And i’m still alive, so i guess it’ll get better… Just gotta be strong enough.

my whole body aches, i’ve been in bed for quite a week now, have fever, i’m SO sick and tired of being ill. Just wanna be cured, just wanna have FUN.

Yip! The stars dont lie! :)
Went to a new doc a couple of weeks ago… he’s cool, in a grandpa kind of way! But I trust him, I trust that he cares and that he’s going to help!

the stars tell me good things lie ahead!! :)

“Obstacles are like wild animals. They are cowards but they will bluff you if they can. If they see you are afraid of them… they are liable to spring upon you ; but when you look then squarely in the eye, they will slink out of sight.”
Orison Swett Marden

... earlier this year i had a seizure, out of nowhere. I am not epileptic, yet every couple of months as soon as I think everthing is under control and OK again, it happens. The Neurologist is an idiot and hasn’t told me anything or hepled in anyway… according to her everything is fine! I’d love to kick her in the head! but anyway!
.... i would do anything to make this disappear and for EVERYTHING to be normal again- ‘cause it changes everything. People who know treat me differently to those who dont, always asking me if I’m o.k, if i’ve taken my tablet. Shit! Give me a brake!
I just dont want this hanging over my head anymore… i’m tired. In this short time it’s already taken enough from me, i wont let it take anymore.
Making a booking with the best neurologist in joburg for january, and i was advised by a couple of people that reiki does alot of good… so i’m gonna go check it out.
So we’ll see how it goes

i think i have mental problems, until i read some websites and boards on the internets, then i feel better about myself

this is an example…