Not get so attached to people who obviously don't care

this used to be so hard for me..i’d fall head over heels for a guy the second we met…i’d think my acquaintances were my best friends…and the whole time, i allowed myself to be treated like crap.

then one day i got angry. why would i give these worthless people the power to hurt me? what did they do to earn it? nothing. absolutely nothing.

I met a new guy … and all I can do is warn myself not to get too attached because I’m sure he will disappear like the others … I hate that. I just want to be friends … but, even friends don’t get it sometimes. I hate thinking this at the beginning of a friendship anyhow ….. I just hope I don’t come back here in the future and scold myself for getting attached.

I did it again …

How the f—- hell did I do it again?! I am getting so sick of myself sometimes. I don’t know what it is … but, I can’t keep something.

I just am an emotion person who wants to care … and when I do .. they f’n walk all over me … and walk out. I can’t stand being ignored … I can’t stand pretending it doesn’t matter … I can’t stand being hurt .. over and over.

Why do I care about people - not in general, but specific people - they don’t care about me. It’s really sad to me, just how much someone can disregard your feelings. I guess I should of learned a long time ago. I just want to quit feeling like I might find a great friend, to only be disappointed—good god, it’s not like I am trying to fall in love. I just want to talk and actually know that they want to listen.