sleep better

The nightmares are back, yeah. So I lay awake for 2 hours and right now I am exhausted while I should be this motivated, energetic worker bee. And I am so not. They went away for a couple of months and now they are back. It is so frustrating…

I know everyone says that you need good sleep to do well in things and be awake and stuff and like, it’s true. But I find it very difficult to get to sleep, which absoloutley sucks for me. I usually don’t sleep till about 12am-1am. I’m only 14 and the way this carries on I’ll be asleep in school and tbh, I have done that before, falled asleep I mean. But I’m gradually going to bed earlier and stuff, so fingers crossed.

Ritalin=awake
Valium/Xanax/some-other pink or blue pill=sleep

That’s how it is.

I don’t have a job or a function, other than to clean up after myself. That’s simple enough, though I think a lot of people have difficulty with basic skills in life.

I think I am a night owl, and I sleep in starts during the day. I accept this. I do not regret it. this is who I am.

I hope I will get over the whole Ritalin thing. It’s not very healthy, but it works. I have ADHD so it’s a prescription medication, but it is easy to get reliant on something as powerful as it is.

I feel like I sleep about as well as I can expect with my circumstances. I would really like to thank Carm for her support and sending me lots of great references! This goal will always be a little bit of a challenge until I change my work, so I put it under Do Again category.

I’m surprised that I haven’t written an entry about this. I have a terrible sleeping pattern at the moment. It’s mostly due to stress. I have a sore foot, and my partner is being difficult. I tend to do this thing where I have one day on, one day off, sleeping – so I’m perpetually either sleeping or awake. I’ve been up since midnight and now it means that I’ve been up for nearly 12 hours since most people were in their beds.

I haven’t been idle. I’ve done homework. I watched a three hour play (three and a half hour, not including toilet breaks and walking around the room sometimes to have a break from the whole thing – lord knows what I’ll be like when I’m doing the Henry ones that last forever… but I will not give up, I refuse to give up. I’ll do it all!)

However, I need to be in some sort of routine that I’m happy about. I’ll be happy when my skin clears up, as I am not content when my skin is sweaty, full of spots, oily.

Even if I am terribly underweight, I can handle it as long as my face doesn’t betray anything. That sounds silly doesn’t it?

It’s amazing. I have focused energy during the day, but when it’s time to sleep, I’m out like a light.

If this keeps up, I can take this goal away!

I’ve actually slept through a hurricane in 1988

I am not taking enough care to get enough and good sleep. I mostly fall asleep completely exhausted, sometimes still in my clothes and often with the lights on. I don’t think this contributes to a good nights sleep. At least right now I don’t have trouble falling asleep, which used to be my problem. I guess I have that taken care of.

well…i finally did it. I worked really hard on getting enough sleep and did everything i could to sleep better and let me tell you it is totally worth it. I didn’t think life would be that much different but I feel so much better all the time. This was definitely a good goal for me!

I have the flu or something :( I have spent the last 3 nights awake with a very sore throat :(