sleep better

if only, if only, my insomnia caused me to sleep only 3 hours last night.

FINALLY the doctors have pulled their finger out and sorted out the oxygen situation.

I left hospital two months ago today… appalling.

But at least it’s sorted.

I believe I am having a concentrator for overnight use… Well, regardless of what I do have, the oxygen should make an improvement on how I sleep, feeling refreshed in the morning and not tiring so quickly.

I am not feeling well at the moment and it’s the start of cold season, so this oxygen, if it arrives, will be perfectly timed.

Actually, two months ago it would’ve been perfectly timed.. but now.. well as long as I get it, that’s all that matters to me.

I just want to be able to sleep, and sleep well… and not wake up tired!

when I’m stressed I’ll have nightmares. if had too much sleep the night before i’ll have trouble sleeping. if I get called out with work at night i’ll have trouble getting back to sleep.

My condition has deteriorated again… however the Doctors want me to have overnight oxygen. They think that this will help me.

I am – more than a month after leaving hospital – still waiting for the oxygen company to contact me about setting all this up… But once I do have the contraption installed, I should hopefully sleep better and not be so tired… which would be great!

For my birthday this year I got a 3 inch memory foam mattress topper to put on my bed. It’s very comfy, but I don’t know if it is helping my sleep quality at all. My dog loves it and never wants to get out of bed!

I just realized that for the first time in weeks I don’t feel tired. Lately, I have been tired all the time, in the morning, during the day, at night and no amount of sleep or caffeine has helped. I noticed it, but did’t do something about it. I’d wake in the mornings already feeling exhausted, later then frustrated because I wouldn’t get anything done. The fact that it so cold outside (that also means inside due to no insulation and heating) hasn’t helped.

So, I had a little accident yesterday and hurt my ankle pretty badly. I can’t really walk and didn’t do much today. That obviously helped by itself, but more importantly I think, was that I didn’t have to do anything today. Nobody who wanted me go somewhere, do something, call someone…. just me.

It has been hectic lately. The move to the new house has created a new problem everyday, that needs some attention. And the house mate no 1 manages to make any small problem into a huge crisis. I knew that before, but now it is really getting to me. Maybe I just need to talk to here about. I need space, I need calm and I need to let things be.

seems to be helping. Usually, when I take my Ambien I don’t wake up at all, but for the last two nights I have. I kept a little hand-held game on my night table and played that for a few minutes, and then I started to nod off again.

I am making progress this week on sleeping better.

Not a lot, just better – so I must use my prescription meds properly.

thank heavens that my doctor was finally willing to call in 3 more weeks of Ambien! After 2 nights without the meds, I realized that weaning myself off my dependency on it would be an unpleasant process and would take more out of me than I can afford right now.

Since I’m bipolar, weaning myself off meds is probably a bad idea unless I discuss it with my doctor first.

the Ambien really works for me—allowing me to sleep better.

I’m out of Ambien and having a hard time getting the pharmacy to contact my doctor to renew the prescription.

I slept from 10:30 till 1:30 or so, then fitfully (mostly awake) till 5 am. Then slept soundly till 7:15 or so.

I know it would help me not to get on the computer at night (I think the bright light from the screen confuses my brain into thinking it’s daytime). But I do it anyway. Must try to break that bad habit.

I also know it would help to get back to knitting—it’s so soothing and meditative. I may use this as an excuse to buy some more yarn this weekend…