show more affection

1. Kiss / hug H hello and godbye everytime I see him.

I know it reads like a very minor things but its much more than he has been getting

so i started dating someone. and he makes me soft. like feel the wall coming down, smile when he looks at me and let him take my hand kinda soft. this is not me. no. this is me. just not the me i’ve let out in awhile. it’s taking some time to get used to.

I had a date the other night which ended up lasting 7 hours!! and on a Wednesday. I did not leave till 5:30a.m and I never went to sleep!! Now before your mind goes to the gutter..hehe! We really just enjoyed each others company, doing the things a new person brings out of you. Talking, laughing, ticking, pinching, you know! :-)

private display of affection that is ..LOL !! I got to spend a little time with my M.O.M (man of the month) this friday. He works 14 hour days and gets off around 10 ish so I met him at his house. We watched movies, alot of scary ones were on like Creepshow.. yes the one from 1983, it was freakin hilarious. We watched “The Faculty”, and bits and pieces of others. We held hands and he rubbed my arms because I was cold. He fell asleep on my shoulder while he was doing this (it was so sweet), I wasn’t upset because I knew he was tired and he was sucking it up to spend time with me. All the hugs were nice, the whole night was just real chill and calm, I can’t wait till the next time.

away this weekend, someone was happy !! and no I didn’t break goal number 16..LOL!

I asked someone to marry me today !! granted it was over the yahoo IM but I was serious, he told me “I wouldn’t know how to act if he gave me a ring” like hell I would !! oh well so much for affection, I will still try to work on it though ..

I might get some extra practice at this a little later.

on a side note I have given 200 cheers !! woohooo

My family never really told each other how much we cared, not too much “honey” and “sweety” talk either…I’m trying to do that with my boy without feeling goofy…he does it to me, which makes me want to say it more…I’m working on it.

I have been off and on with someone for over 3 years. He has major committment issues and trust issues .. will duh he is a man right? but anyway a month ago I made a conscious effort to change some of my many little “flaws” like not being affectionate enough and not being so nonchalant. Well it’s about 6 weeks later and despite my best efforts he just isnt going to come around .. its sad but true. I even sent him flowers on his birthday—talk about feeling very unappreciated ..