Stop Negative Thinking

Every time a friend asks if I want to do something I say no and come up with 100s of reasons why I can;t or won’t do it.
It’s about time I just said yes to new experiences and got out there and did it!
Negative thinking is a bad habit which is doing me no good and getting me down.

My negative thinking stopped once I found out I had a job. Like most people, sometimes a few negative thoughts pop up here and there but for the most part, I am a positive person. I find myself returning to the happy person that I have always been.

I am taking a big step in this department. I wasn’t always a negative person. But I have returned to daily affirmations which is keeping me in a positive mood plus finally finding a job also helps.

I am reading “The Secret” again and will eventually play the DVD. It’s funny because I know that if you think positive and keep your eye on the goal that the Universe/God will reward you. I know this because it has worked over and over again for me when I was younger. Now, that I’m older, I let doubt creep in. Something I would never have allowed in my 20s.

I do this almost every day and make myself cry. It’s usually thinking or living through the inevitable death of my parents and/or my cat. I wake up thinking about it, or if I let myself have some unstructured time, these morbid and sad thoughts permeate my mind. And then I feel, especially with my cat, that I couldn’t survive it and that I’d impulsively kill myself and not let myself go through the grieving period. I lost my fiance to a massive heart attack and the grief seemed never ending. I did try to end my life, but by calling my mother to say I was sorry and good bye, she was able to convince me to go to the hospital. I thought of snapping a rubber band each time I go to that place, but then stop myself because I “don’t think it would really work.” That’s how I am about almost everything. I play the tape out until the uncomfortable part and then recoil with the thought of “I can’t do this”. Goldie Hawn