true love

Im still waiting lol i thought i had it and then he siad at first he was with me for a place to stay while he was going to school .
I dont understand im not bad looking alot of guys like me i have a nice personality but now im all dried up or i feel like i am anyways i need to get past this in order to have a real chance i think im not sure.

gosh…seeing all these nice lovey dovey entries now has me blue…sniff…in a way i believe in love…but in a way i dont…i mean…the closest ive been to it…is saying …i like you…and yea go out with a person…but i never say i love you…because i never feel it…its not strong…like …so ive heard pple say…so why lie to myself…why lie to them…besides that…i have seen so many supposed loves…that end up in heart break …i think on top of that im scared…and its soooooooooooo freakenly hard to trust a dude…ive been cheated on…though i was never in love…it did hurt…and it standed to prove how dishonest a guy can be to me…well wish me luck…cus im not giving up…i know hes out there somewhere…

if only….....i had the possibility to know what’s going to happen in the future!
i really don’t want to rush things…but i think i found the great love…i’m so anxious! we just met like 2months ago…we like each other, we’ve been emailing each other everyday and he is amazing… can’t wait to see him again…fuckin’ missing him sooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!

i always thought that love was just an illusion!...and i was fed up with girls talking about how amazing it feels when u love a guy…blah..blah..blah!!! i thought that they are lying to themselfs and liviving in a bubble!
but now i can really tell that LOVE DOES EXIST! because i have strong feelings for someone, it’s reciprocal and just thinking about him makes me happy! the only thing that suck is that he’s miles and miles away…so i don’t wanna rush things…i’m not making plans right now…i’m letting things to destiny!

Last month,on a monday, i saw her…
I think she’a the girl Whom made for me….

I’ve recently met a wonderful man that I’m totally head-over-heels for! It’s still very early but I do think I may have possibly found true love and that he feels the same about me! :)

It would be wonderfull too finde her but as it stands , my heart is torn in 2 maby 4 or 6 peaces by vereious wemon i just got too close to them. So i dont know if ill ever be able to love the same way again but im shure if i finde the right one ill regain my love for her.

Unfortunetly i dont know if i can ever love again.