feel beautiful

I wonder what would happen if I just kept repeating “I feel beautiful”...would my mind eventually accept it as true?

I’ve never really been a girl of much self confidence. I’ve felt like other people have thought I was pretty, but I’ve never actually FELT beautiful. I pick apart every little bad thing about myself, and constantly compare myself to others. I look in the mirror and the only things that run through my mind are Ugly. Gross. Fat. Worthless. Disgusting. But all these negative thoughts about my appearance have a negative effect on my personality. Now the question and goal, is how do I stop feeling these things, and see myself in a new light?

struggle so hard with this while others seem not to be bothered with it at all. I know in my case this has been a whole life experience where I don’t feel beautiful…messages put there by other people that I’m now fighting so hard to get rid of. Kinda wishing there was a mental switch that I could just flip and FEEL the beauty in myself.

Progress:

• Created a Daily Beauty Regiment I have been following, and any new changes I plan to follow as well.
• Being able to buy clothes I like and suit my style, and taking care of them by washing them myself.
• Buying pretty panties and bras and keeping them in good condition.
• Learning that among my group of friends I’m considered very pretty, charming and desirable.
• Finding bath and beauty products that I like.

Things to work on:

• More nice, pretty bras and panties.
• Taking better care of my clothes—using clothes hangers and my dresser, using a hamper instead of leaving clothes lying around.
• Find more accessories that match my style.
• Find the best lotion to help my dry skin and keratosis pilaris.
• Find the best chapstick to help my constantly chapped lips.

but funnily enough, i know that it has a lot to do with getting up early in my case. if i oversleep, ive got no time to do my hair and i feel terrible all day. so getting up when the alarm goes off is going to be my first step.

pay more attention to my thoughts and feelings. What would happen? In those rare instances where I felt beautiful could I do more of whatever it was that made me feel that way? Is it wearing a certain thing? Is it thinking a specific thought? Hmm…

Has anyone watched this show? I’m telling you, it will absolutely change your perspective. It’s really thought provoking and it shows just how warped our opinions (of ourselves) can truly be at times.

The episodes are pretty short and they have a bunch online. They are for any woman out there who has ever compared themselves to someone else and trashed themselves for it. It isn’t your typical makeover show.

Trust me – watch one or two. You will be glad you did.

http://www.mylifetime.com/on-tv/shows/how-to-look-good-naked/video

Ive never been the type of girl to try hard or ever try to impress people im a bit of a feminist and believe that i dont have to wear tons of makeup or tight/revealing clothes to get attention. I dont think im ugly but sometime i just have those days were i just think to myself “why do i look like this” “i hate my nose” “im so fat” and i hate it!!!! but how exactly do you stop these thoughts?

i’ve been in such a funk lately. i know whats wrong with me but at the same time i dont. its really frustrating.
the thing is in my mind i think i know what beautiful is but i can never envision it, however when i see someone else, it hits me and i say that they are beautiful
i’ve never seen that in myself and i really wish i could

Ok…there has to be some way that I can build a foundation for myself so that I can FEEL BEAUTIFUL despite what anyone around me says or does. I’ll ponder that and write more about it later…