get better at finishing things

All through out my childhood and teen years and now adulthood.. I’ve pretty much have been discouraged by my mother and whenever I break down and cry and ask why.. she can never answer for her own actions, and just say I wont amount to anything. but she wishes me good luck in the future.(smh) But this is far from true every dream I’ve had she’s found a way to shut it down.. for example 11th grade when colleges started sending me letters she would always say dont get excited because I dont have money to send you, but turned around and put herself through college for 6 years now.. that hurt me to the core, and to this day she still wont help me go to school. My problem is after years of deferred dreams and negativity drilled into my head by a somewhat of a parent. Unfortunately I’ve begun to believe the negativity and cant seem to follow through with anything I set out to do, and I want to change that.. and regain a CAN-DO attitude.. but I need help and encouragement.

All my life (22 years) I’ve been bad at finishing things; it somehow runs in the family. I also think it runs, to a degree, in our society.

I can see the virtue of not finishing things, i.e. you get exposed to a number of things, albeit to a smaller degree each. But I’d really like to see what it’s like to finish things. I think it would have a really nice feeling.

At the same time I don’t want my activities to become compartmentalized, separate entities. I want them to somehow feel organic, like natural elements of my life.

I’ve been clearing some things from my list and hard stuff is coming… One more step

I’ve finished my first rails-based application. No big thing, but one is one.

To go to Roma by walk you always need to walk a first step. (if you live near Roma you could use Buenos Aires for the example :P ) That’s what I’m trying to get better at by now. Many times i didn’t start a project just because of difficulties that were really far ahead. Now I’m taking one step at time, that brings me closer to the end of my trip.

I’ve certainly gotten better at finishing things I start. Now I really think my focus should be on not procrastinating to start the things I need to finish.

LOL. Once I finally get around to starting something, I can finish it. The problem is STARTING the darn thing.

;) As part of trying to finish things, I decided to finally finish this list (I’ve had 18 things since December). I guess it’s not a great leap forward, but at least I’ve done it now. I’ll just have to see if I keep it up.

I have a knack of starting with ideas or tasks and I leave them lying on the shelves.

And another thing. When it comes to work. I can’t promise this. But I have to finish what I have started.

will this list ever get to 43 or will i quit at 37?