be a writer and artist

I started working on the latest Rammstein piece again. I figured out this writing session that I had some songs in my list that weren’t right for the topic. Maybe this will help me move along on getting it written.

I haven’t made much progress on this…I have, for some reason, taken myself out of that intellectual milieu. A lot of stuff is falling apart around me because I’m letting it happen; it’s me moving away from things here in the States and toward things wherever my future is. That’s been really hard on me. I need to quit some more activities that I have a fair amount of ego investment in. Okay, enough crybaby fits.

I spent four days in Dublin (Jan 1-5) writing and people watching. I picked up stuff to use in my art projects. This feels more and more doable, the farther it goes and the more that I put into it.

I’ve been posting my essays on Rammstein to the official fan area, and they’ve been well received by some (and have confused others). I’ve got to rework the second series of essays, though, because I’m not saying what I want to say in them. But it’s good to have something to say after so long of having nothing at all, including all those years in graduate school. I guess I never got the right subject.

I got a nudge for the visual art projects, too. One of my rugby buddies gave me a pic that will be perfect for something, I don’t know what. And I’ve gotten some cool postcards. I had some really cool ones from my boss last year (he travels a LOT), but I think I threw them away. :(

I’m three-quarters of the way through my second series of essays on Rammstein lyrics. So far it’s been pretty cool. I’ve been posting them to the forums on http://www.herzeleid.com, but I haven’t been getting much response. I might move them to the official Rammstein fan area and see how they fly.

It feels good to be writing again, especially something that’s intellectually challenging.

I just got an idea for the kind of art I want to do. I’ve been feeling the urge to get into art again (I was an art major for two years when I was an undergraduate), but I didn’t want to do what I’d been doing before. Suddenly, what I’d like to do-really, what I’d like to see in a gallery myself-hit me this morning. This Thing was inspired by Postscript.

I’m already a writer. I’ve no interest in illustrating my own work. I want to support myself doing this instead of being tied to The Man.