stop talking so much

i can carry on a good conversation, esspecially with adults, but people my age look at me like i’m crazy, maybe i just need to listen for a while. when i’m around people and there is nothing occupying us, we are all just sitting there i always feel the need to fill the silence. i want to hear more, and speak less.

Blah Blah Blah- this is exactly what I feel like I do all the time. I tend to ramble. I tend to talk, and talk, and talk, and never stop. I need to quit it. I need to learn how to listen to people and talk, but not one moreso than the other… That’s my goal.

I have to learn to think before I speak, that’s going to be hard. I have to learn to speak slower. This is going to hurt.my.brain.
I have to learn to give a straight answer to a question or no answer at all b/c my answer are really long.

I talk too much
I talk to quietly
I don’t know what I am talking about most of the time

“It’s one thing to cackle and another to lay an egg
Ecuador is the quote at the side of the page!”

this is kind of a momentous occasion. Because this is my original goal, the one that brought me to 43T in the first place.

I still talk too much. But I think I’m in a more settled place in my own mind these days, so at least I’m able to stop myself and bite my tongue more frequently than I was when I started the goal. I’m a talkative person, and I probably always will be, but right now I’m feeling like I’m able to have better control over the when and the what of it all.

Feels kinda weird, but I’m marking this as done…!

I talk way too much. I need to remember to filter what I say before I just blurt it out, and suffer the consequences afterwards :S

“Ok, so, cross that off the list…”

“Why?” I said. ”’Cause it’s never gonna happen?”

He just smiled.

is not to feel like I always have to have a response, answer, or opinion during a conversation. I have been using, “Hmmmm, I’ll have to think about that” as a reply much more frequently. I like it, because it gives me time to actually think and form an opinion based on thinking. Not just blathering a reply that I regret later because I didn’t think it through.

Well, I don’t always do it. But I’m very pleased with myself when I remember.

I need to wear something to remind me of this goal because if I don’t I doubt I’ll ever change…

The main reason is that sometimes without even realizing it (in the middle of a conversation) I insult someone. This bothers me for 3 reasons:
1) I don’t want to be mean or hurt anyone’s feelings.
2) It makes me sound so stupid because it appears I am closed-minded, ignorant or not tolerant of something.
3) I may not even mean what I say but my brain malfunctions or something and I end of blurting crap out. (This becomes a problem in follow up conversations especially)

Another reason is because I end up having the same conversation with the same or different people all the time and I realize I come off as boring or obsessive. (I am a little obsessive – well a lot of obsessive, I don’t need to be airing out my dirty laundry to the whole world) Plus my same conversations really bug people (ie my husband). I also seem very unintelligent by babbling on and on about the same old stuff, and never having any new interesting stuff to say.

The second to last reason is because its a form of procrastination. I seriously waste so much time because I’d rather chat for an hour than do homework for an hour. What a stupid thing to do because I would have a way better time after I get crap done.

Lastly, I have no mystery to me. I don’t even like talking to people. I get insecure about my lack of intelligent things to say. I even think to myself, while I’m chatting someone up, they don’t even want to carry on this conversation with me. Why am I bothering them?

I should just keep to myself, to avoid offending anyone, to avoid boring anyone, to avoid appearing unintelligent, to avoid procrastinating, to actually have some mystery about me.