upload an undoctored photo of myself

why try to be something you are not?? if people dont like you the way you are then they are shallow idiots. ive never changed anything about myself in a picture besides changing it to black and white or scribbling out my messy room in the background. and that was once lol. i didnt even start wearing make-up alot untill like last year. i always thought id rather people see me, the real me, all the time. not a mask =].

The only recent photo that I uploaded that had been edited was a shadow. I figure, hey… this is me. Imperfections and all, its just who I am.

The Self Portrait Goal at Flickr has actually REALLY helped me enormously with my self image.

I know I marked that “Feel Beautiful” goal as done a long time ago, but for me… that feeling is an ongoing practice. I certainly don’t feel beautiful all of the time, but looking at myself differently – with rawness and truth… helps.

And here is an irony. I don’t wear make-up all that often. I leave my skin unadorned. In this photo? Make up… LOL. I was in the women’s locker room at BC, preparing to go on stage. I like the eye makeup though. I think it looks pretty.

But I tried it anyway, and I got tons of complements on it vs when I didn’t. Turns out, people think i’m beautiful and it’s really help boost my self-confidence! =)

Taken 4 years ago. Oh how I’ve aged in those 4 years! Will have to dig out something more recent, but it’s a start at least.

what am I trying to hide?