get rid of my inferiority complex

I ran across a book at the library entitled, THE MYTH OF SELF-ESTEEM. The point of the book: if we applaud ourselves for our successes, then we’re naturally going to beat ourselves up for our failures.

I hate feeling that everyone’s better at everything than me… am I just a failure at life? I’m sure I’m not … but I need evidence

I completely unserstand every one. I feel horrible about the way I look at people. I mean even my own friends I look at in envy always wishing that I could be as good and as happy. I just second guess everything I do and if I’m even worth getting to know and love. It’s a short coming that I hate and really wish could go away. Feeling inferior it’s kind of hard to change it’s almost like you enjoy self-loathing and are scare to change it. I wonder if I work towards changing this what will be my security blanket? I feel as if this is what I use as my excuse, my excuse not to get to know anyone or my excuse when relationships go wrong. Messed up way of thinking I know.

i get jealous of people who i know who just captivate me and are so admirable for their qualities. i know this is so bad but it almost paralyzes me and i get so fixated on how good they are at what they do and i’m just like… I SUCK, i’m SO NOT LIKE THEM and i wish i were. i know this is probably not really positive, but when i look at what i’m good at, i’m only so-so at what i do. i dabble around here and there. i wish i were the best at something, but i know you can’t just say it’s your best without working hard to be the best… because being the best is only relative.

i guess i gotta remember to just keep making myself better… it’s the only thing you can do… but now i’m having doubts about getting there…

the signs were always there it’s just today that i realized that i have an inferiority complex.

I’m wondering if I should eventually add something like this to my goals. I’m on a computer in the library right now, and a couple behind me is chattering away. It’s not bothering me a great deal, since I’m only checking e-mails before I leave, but it might be fun (and good for self-esteem) to throw a terrible tantrum: yell at them for disrupting the sanctity of the library, weep because my peace has been violated, make an awful scene to the point of being asked to leave. Might be fun…someday.

For the longest time, I have had this inferiority complex. I wish it would just go away, but I know it won’t if I don’t consciously work on it. I wonder if it would help for me to write five good things about myself every day at the end of the day? One thing I know for sure is that I sure do have some pretty negative thought patterns going on. I tend to see all of the bad things happening in my life, and not all that I have to be grateful for. I really need to switch this around, not only for my own happiness and peace, but for my kids. I want them to grow up being positive outwardly and inwardly. Its not fun always thinking you are the worst. Other people who know me would say I am talented in many areas, but I never give myself credit. I am so hard on myself, and can’t except myself unless I am . . .perfect. Which I’m never going to be, at least not any time soon. :\

I am always looking around thinking everyone not only is better than me, but believes they are better than me. I’m so sick of it. I’ve gone through life being kind of a loner, almost like I’m just watching life from the sidelines. For once, I want to believe in me, believe that I am good enough, smart enough, and darn it, people like me. Just kidding about that part. Anyway, I think the idea about writing good things about myself might help me. Maybe I could at least try and see.

All during my teen years, I assumed age, skill and confidence would eventually trump this, but now at 33, I’m dealing with it more than ever. I’m constantly wrestling in my mind with “I should have worked harder,” “I should have done a better job,” “Can I ever measure up to X,” etc. My dream is to wake up one morning assured that my opinions and thoughts are valid and express them without apology, without fear of stepping on toes, being laughed at or dismissed, to forgive myself when I fall short, to applaud myself when I make an effort.

I just started doing things I liked that mad me feel like a bad@ss. I unno. Just believe that you’re awsome.

i would like to quit smoking and drinking,because every time get stressed by something or someone,i end up not sleeping at home but going out to nightclubs and parties meeting chicks,getting drunk,thinking that my problems will go away,and they don’t,by doing so i know that im only making the matters worse.