Tell my mom I love her often

My mother is quite literally the most wonderful person I’ve ever known in my life. There were times when I thought it would be so much easier if I’d never been born, but my mom was always there to reassure me and give me this certain strength in her unconditional, pure love for her only daughter. The trouble is, it’s so much easier to say things like this to everyone else. I get uncomfortable putting my mom through more emotional nonsense than necessary. My goal is not to go into this much mushy detail, but still to say the words “I Love You” to her every day, and mean it, and let her know just how much I mean it, and what she means to me.

she knows how i feel. I never know what might happen.

My mom never really did anything totally awful to me. She was just a lady trying her best to be a good mom, with all of the outrages and flaws that come along with that.

It may be a little easier for me to forgive my mom, because she is 45 years older than I am, and I am watching her now become somewhat frail, and I realize more immediately that she won’t be around forever. I don’t want to waste the time I have with her re-hashing old shit that can’t be changed.

The best part about saying “I love you” is remembering that you CAN change relationships; they may not always be your ideal, but the dynamics can be shifted to places you will both accept and can deal with.

Any rate, I suppose none of us know when anyone else is going to go, so it is always best to say I LOVE YOU to everyone we love, since every time could be the LAST time.

Our friendship is continuing to grow and I make a concerted effort to let her know how much I appreciate her.

I do say it often, especially when we get off the phone but I want to make a concerted effort to call for no other reason than to tell her that. Also, send cards and small little care packages of things that I know she will enjoy.

Just spoke to her and I will probably go home this weekend and spend some time with my Mom & Dad. Perhaps do a girl’s day out.