I over think everything and that stops me from doing things that I really want to do, I would like to be free of that.
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I have come to the conclusion that I am OCD about over analyzing. I analyze EVERYTHING that EVERYONE ever says! It has led me to insomnia because my brain never stops. Its so bad, I cannot have a normal relationship with anyone, not even female friends. I started to realize it was really bad when I can no longer make a phone call and accept that someone is not answering. I start to think about why they arent answering, and of course, it cant be that they are napping, working, on a date, out with a significant other, on the other line, wathching a movie, reading a book, cooking maybe? Nope, those arent the answers, so they have to be mad at me, but for what? Maybe this or that, which makes no sense because if that was the case, they would have done this or that. And the list goes on until they call me back, sometimes maybe even a week later because they were on vacation! “sigh” yeah, thats what i go through every moment of my life. And I just dont know how to make it just a little bit better.

