I just found out that Roger Ebert died ! I am in shock ! He’s like one of my heroes and stuff (and I only have a handful). Shit…
How ironic since as a creative person I bear little love for critics. Well I just really love reading his reviews, old or new (there are so many of them, guy’s seen and reviewed pretty much every film ever made, it’s crazy, and they’re all archived on his website). It’s just good reading, this last couple of years I very much enjoyed, every now and then, spending whole evenings just reading random reviews of his, just for pleasure. No grandiloquent bashing/praising, no pretentious/irrelevant references, no nonsense, just an intelligent person who loved movies and expressed his opinion, no matter how negative, in a humble way always ; even when I don’t agree with his point of view I enjoy reading how clearly he expresses it.
But what made him a role-model to me is how positive and dedicated he remained in spite of his battles with mind-blowing health problems. He wasn’t just a cancer survivor ; for many years disfigured and unable to talk, and still you forget all about it when you read any of his reviews (and he kept writing a shitload of them) : genuinely humorous and philosophical, guy just kept doing and loving his job. I don’t know, to me that’s such a rare and badass attitude. I want to say I’ll miss reading his new reviews but luckily there are still thousands of old ones out there that I haven’t read/reread. He was a very internet-savvy and apparently accessible guy, a few times when I was especially depressed I thought maybe one day I’d write him a lil e-mail just to say thanks for his inspiring attitude and stuff. Well, I don’t get to do it so that was a little tribute instead. Sorry for writing “shit” a lot. Pretty surreal news…1 month ago
rel- MY. DAD. DRIVES. ME. NUTS.
I appreciate his wanting to help, it’s just the way he helps that’s sometimes a little… indelicate ?2 months ago
Having read some news today, I’ve (finally ?) come to the realisation that this world is a completely demented place :
- some 30-year-old wanker who should have been in charge of his country’s well-being or whatever has decided it would be so much more awesome to start throwing scary threats around, introduce martial law and conduct a nuclear test instead, because, you know, people so need more nuclear explosions right now. There are 25 million people in North Korea who might have had other priorities had they been supreme leader, but unfortunately for them the dude whose father was supreme leader before gets to call dibs, because it makes so much sense. Also it says supreme leader so gtfo.
- disturbing headline : Royal Baby Due Date Revealed. Is there an appellation any more grotesque than “royal baby” ? Can’t he/she just be a baby ? or is this another supreme-leader thing ?
- actual twenty-first century dude who wears lots of gold and stuff, gets carried around on a little throne thing everywhere and tells billions what to do and not do with their willies has decided that he’s now too old to keep wearing pimping golden things and being carried around on a throne while telling billions what to do (with their willies). Apparently it’s a very big deal, some supreme-leader type shit. Because God.
- meanwhile, in another country, some sort of celebrity preacher rapes, tortures and leaves for dead his own daughter, gets away with a 50.000$ fine. In the very same country, some kid posted a couple of tweets in which he said he didn’t agree with his prophet on everything and considered said prophet an equal. He’s now imprisoned and awaiting death sentence. Because God.
Anyway, I’m hungry now :/ 3 months ago
people can’t see how well dressed I am under my coat. Very frustrating. Hey I already have to put up with the idea that no one gets to see my gorgeous underwear even in normal weather, so let me at least show my kickass vest ! Darn cold >_< 6 months ago
Had a drink with coworkers after work (the same coworkers who annoyed me yesterday). I got soooo drunk though in a good way (though I’m feeling the beginning of a comedown, especially since my tinnitus is so mind-blowing). Here’s a list of things more drunk than me right now :
Edit : oh and MyImaginaryWorld (we know !). 9 months ago
I’m going to visit my grandparents in Brazil in a few days !!! I feel a bit anxious and weird about it ; haven’t been there in 3 years, haven’t seen them in 3 years, haven’t traveled anywhere in over a year, haven’t had a vacation in 6 months… Still not realising. 11 months ago
Leaving for work, it’s going to be a tough evening. They want me to learn how to use the machine and software to take 3d photos of visitors, which is what I’ve been up to this last couple of days. I don’t mind learning because few people can operate it and when those people can’t show up at work, it’s good to have someone else available. However, I don’t want the photo boutique to become my new official one, much like the booth-tique downstairs, it’s just deserted, and not only that, the clients that do come there are more difficult to deal with (if they don’t like the photo, you have to start over again and redo all the adjustments, I hate it, the photos are very expensive to make and if you waste one you get blamed, it’s too stressful). So before I start my shift tonight I want to have a talk with whoever’s at the office and I think I’ll just outright explain to them that the reason I work here is because for two years I was too down to leave my house and that I’m happy doing any job as long as I don’t feel useless, and that if they keep appointing me to the boring boutiques for absolutely no reason (some coworkers beg to be appointed there but the office won’t let them, go figure), well then I might stop working for them. I hope I have the guts to tell them anyway. 12 months ago
Yesterday, my sister and I had a nice evening with my brother and his girlfriend. Then I took my sister home (she’s blind). We were walking in the subway and talking, I was enthusiastic and we were both tired, cold and hungry, and for the first time ever, I didn’t think of warning her about a bunch of stairs ; this last couple of years, we’ve sort of developed this implicit system where as I’m holding her arm, I slow down a little so as to indicate that there’s going to be a couple of stairs, that way we don’t have to interrupt the conversation, unless it’s a whole flight of stairs or something else tricky in which case I verbally notify her.
Anyway, this time I honestly can’t tell whether I did the slowing-down thing at all or whether it is her who didn’t notice it, we were both, as I said, quite tired and caught up in our conversation, might have had something to do with her wearing highish heels too and me going through too fast, but next thing I know, she tripped and lost her balance.
I got so scared ; the couple of seconds it took for her to fall lasted an eternity, she just sort of did a 180° loop and I held her arm as hard as I could ; she was almost down at that point and I was standing literally diagonally at the top of the stairs so gravity got the better of us, she fell on her back, on the stairs, I suppose a lot less bad than if I hadn’t managed to suspend the fall half way through, and because I kept holding on to her and she’s not just six pounds heavy I went down the whole five stairs and landed a couple of meters ahead of her, facing the ground (which hurt like wow). She said she was okay but I got so scared and felt so shitty. During the rest of the way I wasn’t quite into the conversation and kept telling her about every single sidewalk even though she doesn’t technically need to know that.
So, much emotion last night. 13 months ago
On the subway I saw a young woman violently disentangling a little girl’s long hair wih a comb ; her hair looked very dry and it looked like it hurt a lot up to her forehead, she kept quivering at each comb stroke. I felt sorry for her. I think they were poor and having to raise a kid with little money sure must be hard. Still she seemed a bit too tough on that kid to me. 13 months ago
I miss my grandpa :(. I should call him tomorrow. 14 months ago
I actually saw people copulate right in front of me today in the park… took me a while to figure out the swinging of those branches was irregular ! Did I mention I’m traumatized ?
Also I can’t help but see it as a direct taunt to my celibacy. 23 months ago