have fun on a date

I have fun every time I go somewhere with Keith…so I am moving this to the done column.

Well let’s see….we had this great 12 mile bike ride on Saturday and had intentions of getting cleaned up and going out dinner… we settled on take out chinese…

It was great…like I have known him forever.

Sunday we went to church and then to Lowe’s…that was fun to…

Last night he made me dinner…it was simple and easy and he is a great cook…

Wow….is it dating if it is the same guy every time…

...all of that and he was on time…

I really do not know if when you find someone that you like….and you start to see only them and on a regular basis if it is dating.

I stayed with Keith yesterday we cooked dinner then went for a two hour walk….it was great had a nice time and talked, then went to bed…talked some more…..

Keith is great…

last time I felt like this I jumped right in and was totally in love and infatuated and I know how that ended up, two years later I was heartbroke….

So maybe I will try and go a little slower, but I like him more with every passing day….

Well….

I have been having a lot of fun with Keith on dates and even better… I like him as well as have fun with him. Tomorrow he is going to come over for dinner, wonder what I should cook. Jean is coming over with Doug too…Should be fun….

I have another date with Keith…

I like him a lot….

Not sure how this happened….

Hopefully I won’t run the other direction.

Here I am dating….at 45 ugh…

I think Rob is just sneaking in….I have stopped contact with the rest of the men I have been dating.

He just is nice and he doesn’t push for anything more from me and well….I think that he knows exactly how I feel and where I am at….

He asked me yesterday what I woukd if Mike wanted me back in his life….I was honest. I said I would take him back. He said I have been there, and then he said well until then I just keep hanging out and see if I can change your mind.

That was interesting….Hum…

I had a date wtih my friend Walt…It is probably the 6 or 7 time we have done something. He is a nice guy, but all night like I have to say “what did you say”, as he doesn’t speak up adn he doesn’t look at you when he talks to you. I know nitpicking again but conversation is important. He is a great guy, but really I can’t see it going anywhere as that just drives me nuts that he is so soft spoken that I can never here him.

Hum…

Maybe I am too critical…He hasn’t tried to get too tuchy feely, he isn’t and alcoholic he has a great job, his son is great and chose to live with him, he polite always gets the door and he is amart and been around the world. He has a lot of good qualities, he just isn’t my type personality wise and as nice as he is, I would be bored stiff with him.

I will probably get comments, it isn’t a comparing thing with Mike…just I know myself and knwo he could never hold my interest long term. It has only been 4 months that I have been on my own, I need to hold in there…Either Mike will come back or someone perfect for me will come along.

Tonight I have a date with Rob…

Now he is growing on me…

Here I am again posting another date….not that it was a disaster..he was nice….just so much baggage.

Nice guy good looking….but here he is 4 year sober and going to AA everyday. I admire that but for me a person who has never drank and just getting out of a relationship with a sober (19 years) alcoholic.. I just don’t want to subject myself to that. He was a very fit good lookintg man. But his life is a disaster related to his drinking. 40 years old is a long time to have no assets and not a good job to rely on. I can see that he has his life together but I can also see that he would not be good for me. I deserve a lot more stability.

On one hand I am proud of myself. As generally when a good looking guy throws himself my way I dive in. I am not going to do that this time.

That person will come along. Yes I still want it to be Mike…I hope he will get help…

Well….

I had another date last night….

He was nice….but well….I just need to stop dating…

I am not ready to move on yet, I am getting better…but as soon as I got home he called me and said he goes after what he wants..

I am sorry but I have to want the same thing….

The right guy will come along again I just have to heal and like myself…Then he will show up…

Well went on another date…

I know I said I wouldn’t ever again…

The guy was nice, not too bad looking…until he started to get touchy feely and hour after knowing me…

Sorry that is too soon and well, I love to touch some one I care about but touchy feely guys that always have to have their hands on you, bother me…

I love to hold hands, love to kiss but come on…

Who reaches over and tries to smell you perfume on your neck and is copping a feel at the same time an hour after you have met them…I had to get out of there right then…

Dismissal…another disaster averted I suppose…