play my violin again

I played the violin for 10 years and have not picked it up in 3. Recently, I ave realized just how much I miss and love it. I absolutely must play again. I forget what a release it is and what a magical sound it makes. I am going start playing and this time I won’t stop!! I can do this!!!

I can’t even touch my instrument.

I remember when I was still involved in orchestras and groups people had names for their instruments – Penelope, Bassie, Violet. I always thought it was ridiculous – not because I thought it was dumb to name an instrument, but because I could never think of a name for my instrument other than my own – Amber. My violin was an extension of my body. It was just as part of me as the hands that bowed and fingered or that tingly gut feeling you get when you’re about to play on stage.

So my instrument went nameless, and now years later it sits all alone and dusty – still nameless, and I can’t help but feel I’m alone and dusty just like the violin, missing my other half.

Ok, so I think maybe the best way to start this is to actually take some theory exams… at some point… gah

can you believe actually used to lead orchestras and play solos now only airing my violin gets is when I dust its cover! Need to get over the fear of sounding bad before getting better again!