get over him

Kind of feel like a bug that has just hit a windshield. I know that if I call James it will not be pretty. Oftentimes our conversations just made me feel like SHIT but, I feel like I need to know that it is truly over so that I can get on with my life. I guess I am just a glutton for punishment and, it gives me a perverse pleasure pouring salt into my wounds.

so i’m down to my first week of him not calling me. its really not as bad as I thought it would be. I’m still alive, sometimes I get lost in my thoughts, but nothing major. I’m not thinking of dating anybody else at this point. I’m still wallowing in my misery. one thing i’ve learned through this is that pain is good. you need to feel it once in a while to feel alive. i’ve been in and out of relationships since i was 16 and havent stopped once to relish being single till now. i just turned 27. i hate feeling lonely and this is going to take a lot of getting used to (sleeping alone, eating dinner alone, watching tv with nobody to trash cheesy actors with), but i know i can do it. i don’t hate him anymore. but i miss him terribly. the only thing that keeps me from calling him is the thought that he doesn’t even bother to call me, ergo he has moved on and so should I. ouch.

ok so i have only known this guy for about a month and i dont know why but i feel like i fell really hard for him. i mean is it possible to feel so strongly about someone u barely know? so we both liked eschother and then next minute he starts dating someone esle.. i dont know why but it really crushed me :(

i want to get over it but at the same time i feel like i cant give up on him :( i dont know what to do??

So I’ve Liked this boy for very close to a year now. We kinda had a thing in the beginning, not going out nor nothing to special. Just A lot of Flirting and we both knew we liked each other. Well Just all of a sudden he started to like this other girl, [Who is now, but wasn’t at the time, one of my best friends] But they’re over now as well. Him and his friends are just now starting to hang out with me again. But also with one of my best friends. And i’m afraid they’re gonna go out again. But Still after all this i’m STILL not over him. Is they’re anyone who can and is willing to help me? PLEASE!

Apparently, I got over one, just in time so that I can get over another! Ha! Life is funny.

last night i had the worst case of withdrawal ever! i had to literally call all my friends on my phone list to keep myself from calling him. pathetic, i know, but whatever works, right? my friend came over late last night to smoke some cigs, and listen to me pour my heart out. he was a sight for sore eyes. i really needed a friend last night. it was as if my friend felt that i was in the brink of desperation, he called me at the right time, just when i was about to place my call to my ex. overall, i’m doing pretty good, feeling better, and looking forward to a full recovery.

im getting closer to this. its such a self esteem thing with me.
when im feeling better about myself, he wont affect me as much.

This is ridiculous. I keep going back and forth. But now, I know for sure that I need to get over him. I’m actually a bit relieved, now I can focus on more important things.

takes time.

delete everything that reminds you of him, pictures, things, memories, those only make things worse.

dont let him have the power to feel like he is still in control of your emotions.

Woke up feeling a little bit better. I’ve been keeping myself distracted by redecorating my apartment. Occassionally I catch myself thinking about him, but I guess thats fine as long as I don’t give in and call. I was so lonely last night I felt like just curling up in a ball…. but I survived. No relapses, I just allowed myself to feel the pain.