learn to have more patience

My job… I work with the elderly. You HAVE TO be patient with them… Its required. Its helped me realize that when everyone is on the go go go, these older people who have nothing to live for, are being passed by. Some have no family or friends. Just waiting for their next meal to arrive so they can go to bed. I’m learning how to slow down. For them.

...with my niece. I never really used to have issues having patience with her because I had her all the time and I was just used to her and had learned how to deal with all the things kids do that can drive an adult insane, but things have changed and I don’t see her very often now. When she does visit it doesn’t seem to take very long at all for me to start losing my patience with her. I cherish her and my relationship with her and I really don’t want to be cranky with her and mar the special bond I’ve got with her. I want her to look forward to the rare visits we get to have, not dread them because her aunt is “mean” or no fun.

I get so frustrated with people so easily. It’s probably out of insecurity, but I have no tolerance for people who are just “weak”, like they have no identity. People who fall into this category are those girls who can’t hit a volleyball during gym class and girls who diet. I think that I am just a very competitive person and these girls seem to threaten me in some way. Kind of like I don’t want to see them succeed because I always want to be on top for everything. I want to work on being more patient and controlling this frustration, because I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT.

WELL I THOUGHT I NEED PATIENCE BUT I HAVE A LOT OF IT!!! SO THIS IS DONE!!!