live my best life

If we spend all of our time planning for what is to come, we miss out on the right now. And that’s what life is, it’s happening right now, and it’s up to me to make the best of it. I use to think to myself alot that I could only be happy, if I didn’t live in my home town. If I could just move away from everything. But then I realized being in a different place would’nt make a difference, being happy with who I am , and what I have is what makes me happy. So live for now and worry about about tommorrow when it become’s your today.

BUT…I have realized some things that I want out of life, particularily in my current life and now its just a matter of making conscious choices to move in those directions in spite of my fear that I didn’t even know I had. WOW.

I think I have only become more frusturated with this issue. THe problem is that it doesnt matter how bad you want something, there are limitations that you cant always get past. And then I get frusturated with feeling like I’m never going to get anywhere and then I miss out on what I could be doing and enjoying now. Even the simple things. Part of living my best life must be in finding joy in the every day things and even when things are awful and you just cant wait for the next stage of ife. If I keep waiting for the next stage, my life will go by and I will have missed it all.

I want to live the life I want to live. I want to be who I want to be no matter what other people think I should be. Everyone has all these ideas of who they want you to be. What the heck. I just want to be and do what I want to do. What’s with all the expectations?? And why do I feel the need to try and meet these expectations and then skip out on my own expectations of myself. Seriously. To thine own self be true kinda thing. Ok, that’s enoough of that.

“one of the greatest feelings in life is the conviction that you have lived the life you wanted to live – with the rough and the smooth, the good and the bad – but yours, shaped by your own choices, and not someone else’s.”