well – i think i think to much :/ – i want to be an independent reliable person and i dont think falling in ridiculous love can be done while being reliable and independent – im hoping that possibly i just havnt found the right person and when i do it will be a natural thing. I’ve never reall had anyone that i couldtn live without – sure there are people i love and i would deeply miss and have some trouble getting on without – but no one that would just rip out my soul if they werent around. I recently read a book series (Twlight) and my favorite thing about it was that the love story was just this – a love so deep and pure that they two lovers literally couldnt survive without each other. it reminds me of the stories of couples who have been together for 3o or 40 years and in the end when on dies the other doesnt take long to follow- b/c they have just lost their other half – so romantic and the epitomy of what i think love should be—but i am so held back b/c i’ve been raised to be sensible and logical -to not let emotions control or fool me – i’m so torn i dont think i can be both passionate and logical 4 years ago

If you were coming in the fall
I’d brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn
As housewives do a fly.

If I could see you in a year
I’d wind the months in balls
And put them into separate drawers
Until their time befalls.

If only centuries delayed
I’d count them on my hand
Subtracting ‘till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemen’s land

If certain when this life was out
That yours and mine should be
I’d toss life yonder like a rind
And taste eternity.

But now all ignorant of length,
Of times uncertain wing,
It goads me like the goblin bee
That will not state its sting! 7 years ago