write more love letters

Sent a cryptic note this AM.

... how long will it take him to find me on 43 things…
I joined as the outcome of his invitation.
He’s been journaling here cathartically and joyfully for a few years before we met.
The spark between us was ignited through sharing our hearts via writing. The first month alone(last July) we wrote each other over 200 emails.
A year later, as our relationship has lovingly grown
our writing has lessened.
For him, for us, as a gift…I dedicate these.
I continue.

Q of Sheba

I wrote my husband a LONG one the other day. A long, long, long one, that brought tears to my eyes while I wrote it. I was feeling so in love and so wrapped up in wonderfulness.

And then I got upset over something stupid, overreacted, and forgot everything I wrote. I forgot everything that I’ve been fighting for, everything that we believe in.

And now I feel like a dummy. Even though the argument is over. Even though we are fine. Why do I forget how much I love him and how wonderful he is so easily? I don’t like to think that I am always like that, and I have always done this. I want to think that when he’s home and not a bazillion miles away I will be able to remember… and not go insane over little stuff.

Mother’s Day was last Sunday and I sent my wife the best love letter I could for a beautiful mother of 3. She got to sleep in while I herded kids until 11:30 and then we took her out for brunch. It was a sweet day, with lots of love from the kids for their mom, and enough time for the two of us to spend together to make it count. I love you Anne, you are a great Mother, and most beautiful to boot.

I’m finding time to write love letters lately. Sometimes good old fashioned pen on paper love letters and sometime new fangled text message love letters. My daughter and I are even sending email love letters. I am in love with love letters. When was the last time you sent one? It is a low risk high reward activity.

Don’t underestimate the power of actually handwriting a note to someone. Not only will your lover appreciate this breath of fresh of air, but you can write love letters to family and friends.
I committ to writing four love letters this year.

Geoff works nights now, so i write him something to find in the morning, and he writes me something while he works and leaves it for me where i will wake up and see it. i love it.

I should do this more. During the beginning of my relationship with Stephen I wrote him love letters all the time. I’m going to start doing better at this.

Once he’s deployed I’ll def. be doing this more often… but I need to do it now more than ever with the wedding coming up. We both need to remember why we are doing this in the first place. He needs a physical representation that he can read over and over again, of how in love with him I am.

Sent a cute card to my sweetheart today, which definitely counts. But I mustn’t forget good old proper letters too.

I’ve written you countless love letters in the past, pages and pages of them; never sent – maybe once on my own accord. You remember when I first liked you a couple years ago? I partly think that my crush on you has helped develop this great friendship of ours. So in a way, I’m glad I’m in love with you. We’d be good together too, but for some reason God didn’t want it that way. So perhaps the best thing we will ever be to each other is friends. Most days I can deal with that & some days I really can’t. What can you do about it though, right?

Lately, when I think of you I feel sorry – like I screwed up, you know the times I make you feel bad, but I was just a mess, you know – about you again. The days I can’t take this, it’s like really hard to cope with our situation & our level of relationship. I deal with it somehow though, `cause I realize I’ll still have you in my life even if I can’t have you that way. & In an odd way that’s enough. It’s enough when you say you feel the same; I feel like I can possibly live off those words for the rest of my life. Though I’ve never met you yet, I miss talking to you, I miss your smile & your laugh & I miss that space in my brain you used to take up. Anyway, I love you Precious.

Your,
Snookums

PS – I love the idea of sending fax love notes to each other everyday now.. Your writing is adorable <3