Find happiness within myself

I am not happy with myself at this time. I often spend or have spent time and energy on other people that was wasted time and energy. I would like to become more focus on myself and my needs.

All my life I have been in someone else’s shadow; following someone else’s footsteps or living someone else’s dreams. I am tired of this so now its time for a change. I want to be happy in my own skin and live out my dreams. I am going to be content with my life. Im still not sure how but i guess this is a good start. Writing out my goals raising the standard for myself. And taking steps not just standing still anymore…

Seems all my life I thought it was someone elses job to entertain me (or make me happy). Through experience and tribulations, and lots of screqwed up relationships,I have found that it ultimately is my job to find happiness and to accept it. Nevcer allowing a person or situation to steal it from me.So now I am in the pursuitof happiness…

...Not to complain about my period…..............

I want to be able to smile, laugh, feel warm and fuzzy inside in an empty room with no one else’s pulse present. I want to make myself happy. Be happy with who I am, what I do, what I think, what I feel. I just want to be able to have alone time and be completely content with it. Feel as though I’m not wasting my own time. Because, I can’t really escape myself, so I might as well be happy with myself and find a source of happiness deep within myself.

Insatiable girl is a 35 year old NYC savy woman who most say has the perfect figure, the most incredible sense of style and wardrobe worthy of envy. She has a smile and a face that lights up a room along with a personality that can turn the dullest event into a fabulous soire. She is sophisticated, talented, bright and has a terrific career. She has a handful of men to take her to dinner to the finest establishments and yet has that special man who has always melted her heart. Her family is warm, loving and supportive both financially and emotionally.
You may read this and automatically hate insatiable girl. She sounds too perfect. Too good to be true. Well, don’t be envious of her so fast. Insatiablegirl is one who appears to have it all but inside is fragile, confused, never satisfied with herself. In a word – Insatiable.

We all go through life trying to achieve true happiness. Well, how is that achieved? As children, it seems that fun is all around us, and we have no problem laughing and enjoying life day by day ” in the minute”.
Suddenly we become teenagers, and a whole new list of responsibilities are laid at our feet. We then see that life ahead is not all about jokes and activities with freinds. There needs to be a balance made between the growing up stage, and seeing our reflection as children.

The human race is also very caught up on ” public perseption ”. There is a certain kind of image we are to portray, and falling short of that is a disappointment to some. This undue pressure is very difficult for many people, and we make lofty expectations for our own personal life direction.

Be who you are, not what others expect you to be. Live in your own eyes, not in others. We are individuals, created on this earth to be different, and that is what makes life interesting.
I have many freinds, and all possess certain attributes, and also character flaws that make them unique. THAT is what I love about them! Don’t give up on who you are, and try to emphasize the strengths and work on the points you need to fine tune.

Happiness can be achieved by knowing who you are, being content at the stage you are in, and not setting goals too high to obtain.

We are afterall, the most intelligent living life form on the planet!