improve my life

In September I was stopped for my inspection sticker being outdated (I hadn’t fixed a crack in my windshield). Well, the officer runs my license and turns out that it has been suspended because when I had gotten THE SAME Ticket in another county 3 months ago, I forgot and didn’t pay it.

Soooo… since I wasn’t legally able to drive, I had to have my car towed 5 miles at a cost of $225.

Of course I got 2 tickets for them.

Well, today I went to the hearing and because I had gotten the old ticket paid, the windsheild fixed, the inspection updated, and a new drivers license ~ they dismissed all charges

AND

There were NOOOOO court costs or fees of any kind!!! (considering how much I had already had to shell out for this cr@p I was a little nervous)...

YAY!!!!

So, exactly a month ago (I just looked it up), the Cowboy broke up with me, for reasons too crazy sounding to even put here.

Since then, I’ve been trying many things to busy myself to not think of him or think of being with him. One, is dating again, and that’s working somewhat.

But, what I have also been doing, is staying in contact with him, as a friend. Sometimes daily, sometimes not. That has been a bit rocky, but he makes me laugh, he accepts my 2 sides (the Jen straight-laced side and the fun Jennalicious side) and not only is he interesting, he thinks I’m interesting. It’s very odd how we are very similar in a lot of ways.

Well, we just had a conversation and the 1/2 of me that likes him as a friend had a great time. The 1/2 of me that is still in love with him was tortured.

He knew that might happen, and yet I told him it wouldn’t.

He was right., (oohhh, and I just hate it when boys are right, LOL!)^sniffle…

I’ve got to stop communicating with him, it’s just killing me. Maybe someday he’ll be available, but he’s not today and I can’t go the next 3 years talking to someone I love while they are in limbo.

Pretending that the 1/2 of me that isn’t happy doesn’t exist isn’t helping the whole me.

While this may seem like a dumb subject for this title… It will actually save me a LOT of grief.

I lost my camera somewhere during my move in June. Since then the only pictures I’ve been able to take are with my camera phone, which means I haven’t really been sending pictures to family like I used to.

The camera I bought can do movies and is PINK!^{Soooo flipping excited about that part}

I’ve charged the battery last night….

look out world(which really means, I’ll be calling on IT support soon for some problem I can’t figure out, LOL)

Why does it seem sooo hard? I took videos on my camera phone and uploaded them to my computer.

Can’t figure out how to merge (and then to later edit) them together.

YouTube makes it look so easy.

Off to Google some possible solutions again!

“There are many more people trying to meet the right person than to become the right person.”

- Gloria Steinhem

Which is why it makes sense for me to work on becoming the right person for myself and others ;o)

Uggh! I hate going to the doctor. I’ve been too much lately, for nothing significant, but I needed to get 2 things resolved that I keep ignoring. My half-hearted attempts over the years never fixed the situations.

Well, today I went and got my 2 referrals! Yippee! Getting these things done will definitely improve my life.

Can’t wait!

A friend inspired me this morning when I was trying to get out of knowing how to fix my computer and Palm Pilot phone problems. They wanted to “enable” me to help myself improve my life. ^{(basically, they didn’t know how to fix the IT problems either…but I digress)}

I’ve been thinking about it all morning and I think it’s a great idea!

The stuff I’ll put here will be the crap that doesn’t interest me, pains me to think about, confuses the heck outta me and or makes me feel dumb. When faced with these situations I naturally avoid them or only go into it half heartidly and they end up unresolved.

Now when I do get my act in gear and accomplish them, they will surely have a positive impact on my life.

“Improve my life” is a little too vague.

Can’t improve perfection. Only expand it.