get closer to my friends

went out to a club in wolvo called The Planet last week with one of my mates from work. that was fun as ive never seen him drunk before. he half fell half crawled out of the taxi! might be going out again with him next week. supposed to be going out tonight with another group of mates for one of their 21sts, but sods law i think ive caught the bug going round work and im feeling really sick. theres always another week i suppose.

after paintballing, i invited a few people over for dinner. we sat and watched a couple of films and tucked into the cottage pie my boyfriend made (they also demolished the brownies i had made and was looking forward to eating). it was nice just to sit and chill with a few friends (and a couple of people i didnt know to but who were friends of a friend). we compared bruises and moaned about the yellow team who did not play fair at all on the last game. not sure when im going to be able to tell when this goal is complete, i dont think it ever will be. it can be an ongoing goal for me to strive for throughout my life with every friend that i make.

i have quite a few people i’d consider to be close friends, but only one person i’d say knows me better than anyone(other than my boyfriend, but he’s doesn’t count here). That person is 180 miles away in the county where i used to live. i’d like to get in touch with her more often. We ring each other every few weeks to catch up on what we’ve been upto and gossip, but i’m going to start emailing and texting her more often and make more time to get in touch. i’d also like to grow closer to one of my friends where i’m living now. i’ve been out here and there with a couple of them and we see each other at work etc…but i’d like to get to a point with at least one of them where conversations are natural, silences are comfortable and meet up more often. tomorrow is a step towards that as i’m going paintballing with a group of friends and some are coming round afterwards for something to eat, drink and play a few games. i have to learn to make more of an effort with people and come up with things to do, not just leave it to them. i’m going to set aside more time for others and hopefully make another best friend

I guess I should have named this goal have good friends because in order get to know you friends better you have to have great ones to begin with. The folks I have meet in the last year mean so much to me and I to them that I dont know what I would do without them. They have all introduced me to so much and embraced me. This is something I have never experienced before because I have always been uhmmm an outcast I guess you could say. But any how that is my thoughts.

if i were any closer, it would just be wrong.