come out of my shell

i thought i kinda had already done this… i used to be reasonably shy, but now i’m a lot more talkative. it’s still relative to other people i guess – not just my self. maybe i’m just introverted – and that’s ok.

but i was told this by somebody else “i think that when you come out of your shell..”
i guess i still am fairly quiet around people i don’t know that well.

the only problem is i don’t really know where to start with this. i talk to hundreds of people a day due to the nature of my work, have lots of friends and i’m always in clubs or sporting teams… i guess i could try to be more confident in my self, my decisions and my own opinion.

I always feel like I am stuck within myself, that I never want to let people in.

im in the process of doing this and something i found that really helps me is rap music. It sounds wierd but it really helps because the main message is to do whatever the fuck you wanna do.

i was never a shyperson but now, a freshman in high school, i am. people just dont know the real me and i hate it. I LOVE TO SING! and im good at it. i love acting but i hate crowds. i love talking but hate judgement. so because of the effects i just dont do these things anymore. i want people to know the real me. because i love the real me but i havent seen that chick in a long time. hey, i would do a solo at a school concert but im too afraid of what people think all the time!