become invisible

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I wish that I could turn invisible, it has always been one of my greatest wishes, than I wouldn’t have to beafriad when I’m around people, and I wouldn’t have to run away any more when in a room with people. i could just stand there and be just fine, because nobody could see me, and I could go to work with out feeling sick to my stomache. Everything would be better. Much better.

I had this great dream, that i became invisible. now i really want to become invisible.

I could accomplish two goals in one fell blow.

when you become invisible from people, from society, whether it is intentional or not – it is very hard to come back into sight. i faded out of sight from old friends and even the people in the streets around where i live for many years. when i was ready to come back i had to fight to gain their attention. the depressive energy that sends people into hiding is heavy and gravitational; it is excess soul tonnage that is hard to shed and even if you do break back out into the world in joy it is hard to maintain that excitement and will to live. but sometimes becoming invisible is a necessity to protect yourself from the harmfulness of the world. it was for me. rather than hiding sometimes i wonder if death would have been better. but it’s not, right? because i am still here today to warn you. work better at being a friend and sorting out your differences with the world. it’s worth it.

that way i can sneak into women’s bathrooms and find out exactly what they look like…no,really…no other reason….nope…

It would help me get into concerts, onto trains, and freak my mom out.