become more social

Just started talking to classmates and customers at work and discovered that people are in fact interesting in their own quirky ways. Although i tend to be more introverted most of the time, I dont appear to come across as such and that helped get in out of the house and help me to “fake it till I make it”. I learnt that not all activities are for me and that I can pick and choose what I want to do with my time. I’m having fun learning the weird rules of socializing right now.

It’s not like i am not social but i do no i want to be more social and be free..just do what i want to do! Have fun every second of my life.

I only hang out with 3 people and they all say I am anti-social. I have noticed I am a bit anti-social because I barely leave my house unless it is with them and at parties Im always in the corner. I also barely talk to anyone at school unless it is 100% necessary like a group project. Im also EXTREMELY shy when a girl is around I guess I also have low self esteem add to list. But with those 3 people Im extremely social.

So I am on Facebook. Yeah who isn’t. But today I sent two friend requests to people I have been waiting to ask me to be a friend. So a little less passive. One step in the right direction. And I also will log on everyday and write a note to someone on my list.

I Am horribly shy I would love for once in my life to be able to just talk about anything to someone anyone like my father.

Talked to my Dad this week-end!
He was calling me & leaving me messages.
It was really nice to talk to him!

Talked with my Mom yesterday & today!

Getting all caught up with my family.

Sent some cards out with pictures too!
And sent a package out recently which I hardly ever do!

my Mom today!

She happened to be in the neighborhood.
So we had lunch today!

We had a nice time!

No drama!
No arguing!

to call my Mom today, but she didn’t answer.
And her machine didn’t pick up either.

I was hoping that we might get together & hang out for a while.
Maybe this week-end or soon.

I took the time to catch up with family on the phone.
After I missed some phone calls this week.

I returned phone calls!
Spent time catching up with them.

Tomorrow I will try to call my Dad.

I talked with my Mom today for about an hour.
No drama today, thank goodness!

So i went to Pitt Greensburg for like 1 hour for “the big bang” but i didnt stay for the fireworks because i was really feeling down and nervous. I spent most of the time looking for anyone that i knew. i have some social anxiety issues and i am trying to keep over them without medications. I hate when i am alone with 100 people around and they are all having fun but i feel like im just standing there. I eventually met some one who was really nice but then it was just her and i and i still felt alone.

I really hope that once i start classes tomorrow i will meet more people and maybe even make friends or something.

Does anyone have any advise about being more social or advice on making friends?